[Blindtlk] the meaning of confidence
Constance Canode
satin-bear at sbcglobal.net
Wed Mar 2 14:01:16 UTC 2011
Hi All,
A few years ago, my husband required dental surgery under general
anesthesia. After the surgery, he went into a recovery room for a
while until the anesthetic wore off completely and I could see that
he got home safely. The receptionist at the desk amazed me by saying
that they could have my husband come out of recovery to pay the bill
and then go back into recovery again. It really made me angry and I
asked her why did she think I was there. I am his wife, I will pay
the bill while he recovers and will see that he gets home safely,
which I did. She acted like she was shocked when I handed her the
credit card and signed my name. When we left, I smiled and told her
to have a nice day, although I really didn't mean it, but hopefully
she learned something that day.
Connie Canode
At 11:59 PM 3/1/2011, you wrote:
>Diane,
>
>Loved your story about your experiences. I definitely agree with you
>that a lot is about the messages people receive and the idea from
>people that more vision equals more capability. I saw this implied
>just a couple weeks ago, in fact. I accompanied a close friend /
>house mate to an appointment to be evaluated by a general surgeon.
>He was going to have a herniotomy - a surgery to repair a hernia.
>Before we went back to the room where he would be seen, the
>receptionist informed us that our appointment would likely be about
>ten minutes, as most of the surgeon's appointments were usually that
>long for an evaluation before a surgery.
>
>Once the surgeon stepped in and introduced himself, it puzzled me
>why he was taking two or three minutes out of a ten minute
>appointment to ask me questions about how far I could see and how
>well I could see. He asked question after question: Can you see
>across the room? What color shirt do I have on? Can you see the
>shape of my face? Can you see shadows or more than that? etc.
>Finally, I politely asked him what was the point of his questions,
>was it curiosity or some kind of concern. I told him if it was
>simply curiosity, I would be glad to answer questions after the
>appointment. He replied, "No, it's just curiosity. I could tell by
>the way that you confidently moved and walked that you must see
>some, but I am just trying to figure out how much you can see,
>because I don't understand, between the two of you, who is helping
>who today?" I replied that no one was necessarily helping anyone.
>LOL. I said that like any other two people who might come to an
>appointment together, I was just there to be there with a friend,
>nothing more than that. That seemed to be a satisfactory answer, at
>least enough to stop his questions and lead him in the direction he
>should have been going, which was to do the evaluation before the surgery.
>
>Not to stereotype, but I see that a lot with people in the medical
>field actually. When I have my 3-month check ups at my allergy
>appointments, often a fellow which is a student studying under the
>allergist who sees his patients before he does, a fellow might ask
>me a lot of indirect questions about my degree of vision, rather
>than directly asking me the question they really want to know, can
>you make it across the room or here or there, etc.
>----- Original Message ----- From: "Graves, Diane" <dgraves at icrc.IN.gov>
>To: "'Blind Talk Mailing List'" <blindtlk at nfbnet.org>
>Sent: Tuesday, March 01, 2011 3:44 PM
>Subject: Re: [Blindtlk] the meaning of confidence
>
>
>>Kelby,
>>
>>I agree with you. There are many outside the federation who have
>>positive federation-like attitudes, and are born to parents who
>>have the drive and the know-how to give a child what they need from
>>a young age. The federation isn't a guarantee. In fact, I was going
>>to say earlier, and then decided against it, that the attendance at
>>an NFB training center doesn't necessarily guarantee confidence.
>>The program will certainly do its utmost to be sure that the
>>student has every possible skill and opportunity to build that
>>confidence, but the confidence and security has to come from within.
>>
>>Now, getting back to the first point. I was raised in a time and
>>place where students weren't given white canes until we were
>>teenagers. As I'm sure you know, this is a time when there are all
>>kinds of uncertainties and insecurities going on for many kids
>>whether blind or sighted. By the time I reached my teens, I had
>>already received messages, in many subtle ways that vision spelled
>>hierarchy. The more vision you had, the more capable you were. I
>>saw kids who should have been reading Braille be forced to read
>>print because of their miniscule amount of residual vision. Why?
>>Because if you had any vision at all, then that was the way to go.
>>By the time they tried to put a cane in my hand, I wanted nothing
>>to do with it. It wasn't that I needed to feel egotistical about
>>the fact that I was blind, I was ashamed of the fact. I felt
>>inferior because of the messages I had received. That insecurity
>>followed me well into my adulthood, and I still fight it sometimes.
>>
>>If you had parents who knew how and when it was appropriate to
>>advocate, and you got the reinforcement you needed as a child, then
>>I say good for you. That is great. But many of us did not, and I
>>had never heard of such forward thinking before coming involved in
>>the federation. No, it isn't a guarantee, but it has brought me,
>>and many of us a long, long way.
>>
>>Diane Graves
>>Civil Rights Specialist
>>Indiana Civil Rights Commission
>>Alternative Dispute Resolutions Unit
>>317-232-2647
>>
>>"It is service that measures success."
>>George Washington Carver
>>
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>>-----Original Message-----
>>From: blindtlk-bounces at nfbnet.org
>>[mailto:blindtlk-bounces at nfbnet.org] On Behalf Of Kelby Carlson
>>Sent: Tuesday, March 01, 2011 4:05 PM
>>To: Blind Talk Mailing List
>>Subject: Re: [Blindtlk] the meaning of confidence
>>
>>i'd like to add a caveat, and I hope this doesn't come across as
>>harsh. I was born blind and raised with a cane and braille since
>>I was very small. I was not taught these things because I needed
>>to be "proud" or anything of that nature. I was taught these
>>things from a young age for the simple reason that they are what
>>is required for blind people to function normally in society.
>>Furthermore, I was not raised in the Federation, but among a
>>family who was determined to see me succeed just the same as
>>anyone else. The Federation is a wonderful organization for many
>>people--I myself, though not a member as of yet, may join it
>>sometime in the future. But being raised outside the Federation
>>neither guarantees nor disallows that one will be confident and
>>successful.
>>
>>>----- Original Message -----
>>>From: "Graves, Diane" <dgraves at icrc.IN.gov
>>>To: "'Blind Talk Mailing List'" <blindtlk at nfbnet.org
>>>Date sent: Tue, 01 Mar 2011 08:59:26 -0600 (CST)
>>>Subject: Re: [Blindtlk] the meaning of confidence
>>
>>>Julie,
>>
>>>This is so beautifully stated, and so very true. The really sad
>>thing for many of us who didn't always get positive reinforcement
>>as children, is that it is much, much harder to acquire as an
>>adult. This is why it is so important to get a cane into the
>>hand of a three-year-old, or get them reading Braille as soon as
>>possible. We need to instill in them the knowledge that they
>>need to be proud of who they are and not take a backseat to
>>anyone. The more confidence they have as a child, the stronger
>>that confidence will be in adulthood. Those of us who didn't get
>>that really have to work hard to acquire and maintain it. I only
>>wish I had half of the confidence that I see in the children who
>>grow up in the federation.
>>
>>>I probably better clarify. I travel with a cane daily and am
>>employed in the mainstream as most of you know. I manage a home,
>>and have a family. But, as Julie said, confidence is an inner
>>feeling. I fight for and advocate equality, and hold fast to the
>>NFB philosophy. But do I always feel secure and equal? Do I
>>always have that sense of inner confidence. No, and there is
>>nothing that can give me that. I have to develop it on my own.
>>
>>>Diane Graves
>>>Civil Rights Specialist
>>>Indiana Civil Rights Commission
>>>Alternative Dispute Resolutions Unit
>>>317-232-2647
>>
>>>"It is service that measures success."
>>>George Washington Carver
>>
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>>>-----Original Message-----
>>>From: blindtlk-bounces at nfbnet.org
>>[mailto:blindtlk-bounces at nfbnet.org] On Behalf Of Julie J
>>>Sent: Tuesday, March 01, 2011 9:03 AM
>>>To: Blind Talk Mailing List
>>>Subject: [Blindtlk] the meaning of confidence
>>
>>>I've noticed that often we toss out the word "confidence" in our
>>discussions, but I often wonder what exactly is "confidence"?
>>
>>>I've read promotional material for guide dog schools that tell
>>you if you get a guide dog you'll increase your confidence and
>>independence. I've seen claims that if you have good blindness
>>skills, you'll be confident. Jeeze, I've even seen deodorant
>>commercials claiming increased confidence if you use their
>>product. *smile*
>>
>>>But if it was that easy wouldn't we all be confident people? We
>>aren't and even those who claim a strong level of confidence
>>still have moments of insecurity. What then is confidence and
>>where does it come from?
>>
>>>I would assert that confidence comes from within. It isn't based
>>on a cane or a dog or a certain number of skills attained. I
>>believe it is an attitude, an inner knowing. It is being
>>comfortable in your own skin. I don't think there is anything
>>or anyone that can give us confidence. I believe that it is
>>something we must claim for ourselves.
>>
>>>Certainly there are extrinsic circumstances that assist us on the
>>road to claiming confidence for ourselves, like good cane skills
>>or a guide dog, but I do not believe that those things *give* us
>>anything, except for perhaps the opportunity for self discovery.
>>
>>>Thoughts?
>>>Julie
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