[Diabetes-Talk] Starting to feel a sense of panic when it comes to my diabetes

[Terri Stimmel]

Hello everyone,

First of all, I am very thankful for the support all of you offer here. It is very much appreciated. I know I don’t respond back a lot, to replies I get. I intend on doing so. But I get caught up in a lot of mail at times.

As my subject says, I am starting to feel a sense of panic, when it comes to my diabetes. At my last appointment, which was just a couple of weeks ago, I learned that my A1C was 9. I forget what they said that my average blood sugar was. But I believe it was over 200. They raised 2 of my medications, and this is not at all what I wanted. But I know it was necessary. Here is what I take. I might not spell the medications properly.

I take point 5 of Ozimpic, once a week. I now take 70 units of treceba every morning. And I take 20 units of Novolog with every meal. But I have more insulin, depending on what my blood sugar is. For example, if it’s 150 to 200, then I take an extra unit.

I think I have mentioned this before. But I am totally blind. I have had diabetes for about 11 years now. I am 43. 

I live with my wonderful boyfriend, who also has diabetes, and who has probably had it for about 10 years or so. His diabetes may have affected his vision, as he has very limited vision in 1 eye, and none in the other.

Neither of us really cook. We purchase food together, as it is more affordable for us to do this. We are both motivated to change how we have been eating. Although, I feel I am a bit more motivated. We talk about it a lot. But I also feel that if 1 of us mentions eating a snack, like ice cream, we kind of play off each other. In other words, I don’t feel neither of us have very good will power.

This last time we ordered groceries, we did purchase a fresh fruit bowl to enjoy. We also got some of those fruit cups. Even though those might not be the best things. We also purchased some of those steamers you can prepare in the microwave. 1 has broccoli, carrots, and cauliflower in it. The other is broccoli with cheese sauce.

I would like to do some cooking for us. But as I mentioned before, I haven’t cooked much, in years. Standing is difficult for me, do to physical pain. I also get tired easily. My boyfriend has talked about attempting to cook some. But so far this hasn’t happened.

Last night, we ordered from Pizza Hut. We got 4 different types of boneless wings, they were all 8 counts, and we got 2 orders of the garlic cheesey bread. They come with 5 long pieces each, that can be separated in half, to make 10 pieces.

We got Hawaiian tarioky, honey barbecue, spicy garlic, and garlic parmacian. I had all 8 of the spicy garlic, 3 of the Hawaiian, and 3 of the honey barbecue. Then I had 4 whole pieces of the garlic cheesey bread. I drank water. Needless to say, I was quite full. We ate at around 5. I didn’t eat anything else until around 8. That was a fun-size pack of skittles. I drank water the rest of the night.

Well around 7 this morning, when I tested my blood sugar, it was 257. In a way, I was surprised it was so high. I did take my insulin before dinner. If I remember, it was around 200, before dinner. But I can’t remember exactly.

This is very hard on me, because I know things need to change. It doesn’t feel the small changes are making a difference. But maybe it takes time?
I don’t exercise. I know I need to do this as well. I actually want to do this, more than attempting to eat better. But my physical limitations actually make this quit difficult. The pain can get so intense for me, just when standing, and trying to walk.

While my boyfriend is very supportive of me, I feel I don’t have much support in this area. We both talk a good game. But that seems to be about it. Plus, he thins if his blood sugar fasting is at 200, that this really isn’t a bad thing. I disagree. Ijust feel at a loss. But I also know that a lot of this is on me. So then I feel depressed. When I learned what my A1C was, it was all I could do not to cry.
I don’t want things to get worse. And I don’t want to keep having increases in my medications. This can not be a good thing.
My boyfriend says that how we eat is not the only thing that can affect our diabetes. He says that genetics plays a part in it as well.
Does anyone know if this is true, or not? What if I start exerciesing, and changing how I eat, and none of it really makes a difference?
Also, how offten can you have a cheat day? Is it once a week, or once a month? Or does that just depend on the person?

Thank you for listening to me ramble. I really appreciate it. I am just sad and frustrated over all this.

Thank you,

Terri

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