[Diabetes-Talk] Starting to feel a sense of panic when it comes to my diabetes

[d m gina]

Sweetheart what a cross you are carrying.
My email address is
dmgina at mysero.net
My name is Dar, I would love to work with you on a one to one.
I will say this weekend is my birthday and I bought a cake for two.
yes glad my birthday comes only once a year, I would be old if it did 
more than that loll.
Please write me, and we can talk.
I would love to help you.
Each of us has ways of doing this crazy thing call being a diabetic.
Hugs and many blessings no matter the size you are.
Hugs go many miles, and prayers go thousands of miles.

Original message:
> Hello everyone,

> First of all, I am very thankful for the support all of you offer here. 
> It is very much appreciated. I know I don’t respond back a lot, to 
> replies I get. I intend on doing so. But I get caught up in a lot of 
> mail at times.

> As my subject says, I am starting to feel a sense of panic, when it 
> comes to my diabetes. At my last appointment, which was just a couple 
> of weeks ago, I learned that my A1C was 9. I forget what they said that 
> my average blood sugar was. But I believe it was over 200. They raised 
> 2 of my medications, and this is not at all what I wanted. But I know 
> it was necessary. Here is what I take. I might not spell the 
> medications properly.

> I take point 5 of Ozimpic, once a week. I now take 70 units of treceba 
> every morning. And I take 20 units of Novolog with every meal. But I 
> have more insulin, depending on what my blood sugar is. For example, if 
> it’s 150 to 200, then I take an extra unit.

> I think I have mentioned this before. But I am totally blind. I have 
> had diabetes for about 11 years now. I am 43.

> I live with my wonderful boyfriend, who also has diabetes, and who has 
> probably had it for about 10 years or so. His diabetes may have 
> affected his vision, as he has very limited vision in 1 eye, and none 
> in the other.

> Neither of us really cook. We purchase food together, as it is more 
> affordable for us to do this. We are both motivated to change how we 
> have been eating. Although, I feel I am a bit more motivated. We talk 
> about it a lot. But I also feel that if 1 of us mentions eating a 
> snack, like ice cream, we kind of play off each other. In other words, 
> I don’t feel neither of us have very good will power.

> This last time we ordered groceries, we did purchase a fresh fruit bowl 
> to enjoy. We also got some of those fruit cups. Even though those might 
> not be the best things. We also purchased some of those steamers you 
> can prepare in the microwave. 1 has broccoli, carrots, and cauliflower 
> in it. The other is broccoli with cheese sauce.

> I would like to do some cooking for us. But as I mentioned before, I 
> haven’t cooked much, in years. Standing is difficult for me, do to 
> physical pain. I also get tired easily. My boyfriend has talked about 
> attempting to cook some. But so far this hasn’t happened.

> Last night, we ordered from Pizza Hut. We got 4 different types of 
> boneless wings, they were all 8 counts, and we got 2 orders of the 
> garlic cheesey bread. They come with 5 long pieces each, that can be 
> separated in half, to make 10 pieces.

> We got Hawaiian tarioky, honey barbecue, spicy garlic, and garlic 
> parmacian. I had all 8 of the spicy garlic, 3 of the Hawaiian, and 3 of 
> the honey barbecue. Then I had 4 whole pieces of the garlic cheesey 
> bread. I drank water. Needless to say, I was quite full. We ate at 
> around 5. I didn’t eat anything else until around 8. That was a 
> fun-size pack of skittles. I drank water the rest of the night.

> Well around 7 this morning, when I tested my blood sugar, it was 257. 
> In a way, I was surprised it was so high. I did take my insulin before 
> dinner. If I remember, it was around 200, before dinner. But I can’t 
> remember exactly.

> This is very hard on me, because I know things need to change. It 
> doesn’t feel the small changes are making a difference. But maybe it 
> takes time?
> I don’t exercise. I know I need to do this as well. I actually want to 
> do this, more than attempting to eat better. But my physical 
> limitations actually make this quit difficult. The pain can get so 
> intense for me, just when standing, and trying to walk.

> While my boyfriend is very supportive of me, I feel I don’t have much 
> support in this area. We both talk a good game. But that seems to be 
> about it. Plus, he thins if his blood sugar fasting is at 200, that 
> this really isn’t a bad thing. I disagree. Ijust feel at a loss. But I 
> also know that a lot of this is on me. So then I feel depressed. When I 
> learned what my A1C was, it was all I could do not to cry.
> I don’t want things to get worse. And I don’t want to keep having 
> increases in my medications. This can not be a good thing.
> My boyfriend says that how we eat is not the only thing that can affect 
> our diabetes. He says that genetics plays a part in it as well.
> Does anyone know if this is true, or not? What if I start exerciesing, 
> and changing how I eat, and none of it really makes a difference?
> Also, how offten can you have a cheat day? Is it once a week, or once a 
> month? Or does that just depend on the person?

> Thank you for listening to me ramble. I really appreciate it. I am just 
> sad and frustrated over all this.

> Thank you,

> Terri

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