[nagdu] To Jenny, was Re: Why so hard?

Mon Aug 27 01:46:48 UTC 2012

*smiles.  that's wonderful jenny.

I hope your PT works wonders on your ankle.

On 8/26/12, Jenny Keller <jlperdue3 at gmail.com> wrote:
> Hi Debbie,
>
> thank you so much.  We've gone through a hard year, but we made it.
>
> He has even been baptized into the church and in about a year, less than
> actually, we'll be able to be sealed in the Temple.
>
> I'm so very excited and love going to church and sitting there in worship
> with my Husband.
>
> Jenny
> On Aug 26, 2012, at 6:10 PM, Debbie Cole wrote:
>
>> Happy Anniversary Jenny!
>>
>> On 8/26/12, Jenny Keller <jlperdue3 at gmail.com> wrote:
>>> Hi Marcia,
>>>
>>> I'll give you the update, and you can post it to the list if you feel
>>> it's
>>> relevant.
>>>
>>> I have been walking with a walker now for a week and a half, and only
>>> have
>>> another week and a half to go.
>>>
>>> I start physical therapy tomorrow to get the leg fracture stronger.  The
>>> therapist also wants to work on strengthening my ankle muscles for both
>>> ankles because I have broken both feet, and now my fractured leg because
>>> of
>>> turning my ankles.
>>>
>>> He says that there are muscles and or ligaments or something in my
>>> ankles
>>> that are stretched, so I have to strengthen them so that they will be
>>> strong
>>> enough to handle uneven surfaces.
>>>
>>> I don't know when I'll be cleared to start hopping the bus again to go
>>> to
>>> the mall and start building up my stamina and pace to do the interview
>>> for
>>> the school.  But that is the target I'm working toward.
>>>
>>> Thank you all for your prayers and thoughts during this time, and I'll
>>> keep
>>> letting you all know what is happening as therapy and building up
>>> stamina
>>> and pace continue.
>>>
>>> Good news though, is that I celebrate my first wedding anniversary
>>> tomorrow,
>>> the 27th, and I couldn't have asked for a better man.
>>>
>>> Jenny
>>> On Aug 26, 2012, at 4:00 PM, Marsha Drenth wrote:
>>>
>>>> Jenny,
>>>>
>>>> your cute. Thank you for the warm words. I do know people care for me
>>>> on
>>>> this list. My inbox was over flowing with messages from members of the
>>>> list on and off list, I am thankful for each and everyone.
>>>>
>>>> And while I am thinking about it, any update on the ankle? your guide
>>>> dog
>>>> application? I am sure all would like to hear.
>>>>
>>>> Always,
>>>>
>>>>
>>>> Marsha drenthSent from my iPhone
>>>>
>>>> On Aug 26, 2012, at 12:38 PM, Jenny Keller <jlperdue3 at gmail.com> wrote:
>>>>
>>>>> Hi Marcia,
>>>>>
>>>>> I'm sorry this is coming so late.
>>>>>
>>>>> You know, I retired Brooks last Easter because he just stopped working
>>>>> and he let me know that by not guiding me around obstacles anymore.
>>>>>
>>>>> It was the hardest thing I've ever done too.  But the reaction from
>>>>> the
>>>>> school that it was my choice to retire him hurt me even more than his
>>>>> retirement itself.
>>>>>
>>>>> I too, had to let him go to a new family, because I didn't know how
>>>>> fast
>>>>> I would be getting a new dog from the school I applied for.
>>>>>
>>>>> It really messed me up for a while, and I wasn't sure if getting
>>>>> another
>>>>> dog was the thing I should do.  But after talking to the school I
>>>>> applied
>>>>> for, I learned things about Brooks and his quirks that he never
>>>>> should've
>>>>> been given out as a guide.
>>>>>
>>>>> That doesn't mean I love him any less.  It doesn't mean the heartache
>>>>> still isn't there.  It does mean that I know, for a fact, that I did
>>>>> everything I could do to make it work, and for me, it was doomed from
>>>>> the
>>>>> beginning.
>>>>>
>>>>> I miss him terribly, and wish I could see him.  But I think it would
>>>>> be
>>>>> confusing to him for him to see me again.
>>>>>
>>>>> He's already had to go through the change of a new family, and my
>>>>> popping
>>>>> up again in his life, I think would confuse him, or make him feel like
>>>>> I'm abandoning him again when I don't take him home.
>>>>>
>>>>> there are so many emotions that go along with retiring a dog.  I feel
>>>>> what you are feeling in my own way.  I'll never say I feel the same,
>>>>> cause no one feels the same emotions.
>>>>>
>>>>> Just know that whatever you feel, feel free to vent it on this list.
>>>>>
>>>>> I know, I sound like a moderator right? *smile*.  Which is funny
>>>>> talking
>>>>> to the moderator herself, but we all love you, and I hope i don't
>>>>> offend
>>>>> anyone by speaking for everyone here.
>>>>>
>>>>> We'll be here for you no matter what you need to say, or anything else
>>>>> you need.
>>>>>
>>>>> Just let us know.
>>>>>
>>>>> You will be in my thoughts and prayers.
>>>>>
>>>>> Be blessed in your grief, and know that Heavenly Father knows how you
>>>>> feel, and that his Son Jesus Christ has felt your pain too through the
>>>>> atonement.
>>>>>
>>>>> blessings,
>>>>>
>>>>> Jenny
>>>>> On Aug 22, 2012, at 8:49 PM, Juanita Herrera wrote:
>>>>>
>>>>>> Marsha,
>>>>>> I know that there are no words that anyone can say to relieve your
>>>>>> pain of retiring Emma. Especially someone like me. What do I know. I
>>>>>> have never experienced the retirement of a guide dog before, but the
>>>>>> simple thought of losing Anise makes me shutter. I would probably be
>>>>>> feeling the same way you are now. I know you will never forget Emma
>>>>>> and that she'll always hold a special place in your heart. I'm sure
>>>>>> your new pup will be special in its own way. I wish you the best of
>>>>>> luck in class.
>>>>>> Juanita and Anise and Baby Benson
>>>>>>
>>>>>> On 8/22/12, Marsha Drenth <marsha.drenth at gmail.com> wrote:
>>>>>>> Hi List,
>>>>>>>
>>>>>>> Although I have been writing that Emma is retired, or semi-retired
>>>>>>> for
>>>>>>> weeks. And although she hasn't been able to work in a good while.
>>>>>>> Its
>>>>>>> official now. She is officially retired. I just continue to say that
>>>>>>> over
>>>>>>> and over in myhead, and its not real. *sigh* Why is retiring a guide
>>>>>>> so
>>>>>>> hard? I have cried over this so much, and then I think to myself how
>>>>>>> can I
>>>>>>> be so attached to this puppy. I feel stupid for crying. But how can
>>>>>>> one
>>>>>>> retire a pup without. I know its for the best, for her health, for
>>>>>>> me,
>>>>>>> for
>>>>>>> our stress level. She has not been happy working in several months,
>>>>>>> and
>>>>>>> I
>>>>>>> hate to see her tense because of it. currently she is here with me,
>>>>>>> and
>>>>>>> hasn't gone to her retirement home. But to think I'll never leave
>>>>>>> this
>>>>>>> house, with her in harness, with her next to me, her protecting me,
>>>>>>> watching
>>>>>>> out for me, guiding me. It just makes my heart hurt. This beautiful
>>>>>>> German
>>>>>>> Shepard, who has lived in three different states with me, who has
>>>>>>> traveled
>>>>>>> on three different college campuses, traveled to numerous cities and
>>>>>>> places,
>>>>>>> was in my life at the hardest and the happiness times of my life.
>>>>>>> She
>>>>>>> has
>>>>>>> always been there. My Emma girl, my emmalena. My emma girl who will
>>>>>>> let
>>>>>>> babies crawl all over her and not bat an eye lash, who will run,
>>>>>>> play
>>>>>>> and
>>>>>>> jump with my older kids. The girl who has saved my life on numerous
>>>>>>> occasions, and probably more times that I didn't know about. It just
>>>>>>> hurts
>>>>>>> so very very much. Its like you know something in your heart, but
>>>>>>> your
>>>>>>> mind
>>>>>>> hasn't kept up with that thought, and vice versa. Every time I have
>>>>>>> a
>>>>>>> birthday I will remember my Emma and the day that we met. It was my
>>>>>>> present,
>>>>>>> best one ever. A part of my grief is that I feel like I failed her.
>>>>>>> Yes
>>>>>>> she
>>>>>>> got sick. Which changed her in so many ways. But couldn't I do more,
>>>>>>> I
>>>>>>> could
>>>>>>> have done this or that. Why did I wait so long to to take her to the
>>>>>>> vet
>>>>>>> with her EPI. She was a perfect dog for me. This girl had so much
>>>>>>> energy, so
>>>>>>> much spunk, she fit me to the T. She absolutely loved working, and
>>>>>>> now
>>>>>>> she
>>>>>>> doesn't. I want that happy, go lucky, spunky girl back!
>>>>>>>
>>>>>>> The why is it so hard question, wasn't one really I needed an answer
>>>>>>> to. And
>>>>>>> over the years on this list I have seen lots of pups being retired
>>>>>>> and
>>>>>>> their
>>>>>>> handlers go through the same thing I am now. Yes I have a class date
>>>>>>> for
>>>>>>> another pup, but up until then, my mind and heart are going to be
>>>>>>> with
>>>>>>> Emma.
>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>
>>>>>>> Sorry for the rambling.
>>>>>>>
>>>>>>> Marsha drenthSent from my iPhone
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