[NAGDU] Our Girl Is Safely Home

[Wayne & Harley]

*Hello Dani,
My condolences on Peg's crossing to the Rainbow Bridge.
I commend you for making that toughest of decisions for your Peg.

Wayne And Harley

*On 5/11/2017 5:38 AM, Dani Pagador via NAGDU wrote:
> Hi, Everyone.
> My Dad took David, Peg, and me to the vet yesterday afternoon. We did
> tests to see how her kidneys were, and the numbers looked better than
> they did on Saturday, but weren't at normal levels.
>
> The vet was willing to let us try more IV fluid, and David would've
> needed to give them to her four times a day instead of the two times a
> day we'd been doing over the last four days.
>
> Peg was needing to go out every four hours to relieve herself, and
> we'd sometimes just barely make it outside.
>
> She started eating, but only a little bit, and only if I hand fed her.
> She'd only want sweet bread and peanut butter. No kidney diet dog
> food, no matter whether it was wet or dry, no matter if it came from
> my hand or the bowl.
>
> The vet said that the fluids could help with maintainance of the
> kidneys, but that they couldn't bring the kidneys back to normal
> function. She also said that there was no telling how short or long
> the maintainance would be effective, and that as far as food went,
> we'd need to keep her on the strict kidney diet, and possibly feed her
> with a syringe and blended food if she didn't eat the dry or canned
> food.
>
> David and I talked some more, and decided to go with our original
> decision to let her go. She's such a lady, so faithful to her training
> that she wouldn't pee in the house, even on puppy pads; when she'd wet
> the bed or have accidents, she'd have this look on her face like, "I
> know I was a bad dog." She wasn't enjoying her food, couldn't eat or
> drink comfortably, and couldn't move around as freely or as
> independently. She was happy to be with us, and would've kept going
> and trying for us, even if it meant waking up every four hours and
> being carried outside to pee. But that's no life for my Peg. I didn't
> want her staying around just for her Mama and Papi, as much as we
> wanted her with us.
>
> We got to spend some time with her to say goodbye and lots of I love
> yous, and I got to hold her and sing to her as the doctor gave her the
> shot and she crossed Rainbow Bridge.
>
> We had a good day yesterday. We got to go riding on our tandem
> bike--she sat in the cargo basket under my seat, with her head
> sticking out, looking around attentively. She was a little more
> herself, walking around the house, wanting to be by my workstation or
> in the kitchen. But she still had her tired moments, when she needed
> to rest.
>
> We wanted to let her go on a good day. We couldn't see having to come
> back to do this again, the let go for real this time, not just for
> practice.
>
> It's been a long, hard time since. I've been doing a lot of crying, a
> lot of praying, and a lot of just sitting around and stress eating.
> The apartment is too quiet; it feels too different, like something
> huge and too important is missing. I can't walk around the complex
> without tearing up; I have to walk past all of the places Peg and I
> would have to go on a daily basis.
>
> I'm soo happy for her; she gets to be with Jesus and all of her dog
> friends. She gets to be herself again, whole and without pain. I
> couldn't rob her of that chance yesterday by making her come back home
> to be with us.
>
> But I'm sooo  sad for us. It sucks to be without her. I miss my girl.
> For as hard and as much as you love your dog, that's how much it'll
> hurt to let go. It'll be better. ... Just not today.
>
> I wrote this for her, but couldn't sing it, because the ache was too
> big, and I was crying too hard.
>
> (To the tune of Danny Boy)
> Oh, Peggy girl, our Lord, our Lord is calling.
> His loving arms will meet you when you come.
> You'll be so missed, I'll always hold you close to me.
> Oh, pretty girl, my lovely girl, I love you so.
>
> Thanks for reading this long ramble, for all of your kind words on and
> off list. Your care, encouragement, and support have helped me not be
> so mean to myself.
>
> More Later, when I figure out up from down,
> Dani
>
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