[stylist] Writing Anonymously

[Aziza Cano]

Jewel,
I dealt with a lot of abuse as a child from my adoptive mother. I'd be 
interested in reading your story and helping in any way I can. Especially 
since one day I do hope to write about my life in its entirety. Maybe we can 
help each other...
Aziza
----- Original Message ----- 
From: "Jewel S." <herekittykat2 at gmail.com>
To: <stylist at nfbnet.org>
Sent: Monday, May 03, 2010 11:25 PM
Subject: [stylist] Writing Anonymously


> Hi all,
>
> I am writing a memoir...it is an emotional process, a painful writing,
> but one that needs to be done. It encompasses my childhood and the
> loss of it, my mental illness and my mother's sadism and abuse, and
> the "death" of my mother in my mind, the "killing" of the mother whom
> I have always loved but also always hated. I can summarize that here,
> but I cannot share the actual writings with anyone who knows who wrote
> it. I would feel that they would pity me, hate me for exposing this
> woman, or not believe that it is true. It scares me to share it with
> anyone who would know it was written by me. However, I know that any
> book that is going to be published needs to be read and edited,
> re-read and re-edited and then needs to be published. I plan on using
> a pen name that would be used only for this book, and for none of my
> others. However, I wanted to know how to go about with this. It is as
> much a healing of my inner child who never got a proper childhood and
> a tru confession to myself that it really happened and that I have
> been very sick and now I'm getting well. My counselor thinks it is a
> fine idea, but I am still afraid to share it, but I want people to
> know and understand the pains and joys, fears and triumphs of an
> abused child who never understood the abuse, who always blamed herself
> for it, and truly thought she was the black sheep who truly was
> naughty, and perhaps even evil. I remember the impression that I was
> possessed, that maybe there was a demon that made me so bad and my
> mother was only trying to rid me of it, or that I was a "bad seed."
>
> Anyway, as you might be able to tell, it's not a nice story nor does
> it yet have an ending, as I'm still trying to heal, but I want to work
> on the story, and someday publish it.
>
> How does one go about submitting a book without being known for who
> you are? How does one go about sharing a story with strangers? Are
> there places where stories can be submitted totally anonymously (and I
> don't mean under a username...I fear that I'd be found out and called
> out...but totally anonymously? Where would such a place be?
>
> I know I sound silly and paranoid...I am sorry. I am just still so
> fearful of sharing the story, but I know that in time it must be done,
> and I have some of the story to share and want it read, but don't want
> to share it as myself. Any thoughts?
>
> ~Jewel
>
> _______________________________________________
> Writers Division web site:
> http://www.nfb-writers-division.org <http://www.nfb-writers-division.org/>
>
> stylist mailing list
> stylist at nfbnet.org
> http://www.nfbnet.org/mailman/listinfo/stylist_nfbnet.org
> To unsubscribe, change your list options or get your account info for 
> stylist:
> http://www.nfbnet.org/mailman/options/stylist_nfbnet.org/daydreamingncolor%40gmail.com