[stylist] believing the unbelievable
Debby Phillips
semisweetdebby at gmail.com
Mon Aug 3 12:29:12 UTC 2015
Hey Bill! I need my saints, too. I have an imaginary "conference
room" where I go sometimes to have conferences with the Lord,
Mother Mary, and my favorite saints. Sometimes it's a very
formal room, with tablecloths, flowers on the tables, candles,
you know. Other times it's a very informal room, easy chairs and
side tables for putting the proverbial cup of coffee. (This was
a big stretch for me, because I didn't grow up Catholic, but was
an Evangelical Christian). So much happier as a Catholic.
(Smile).
I tried sending something that I wrote and got it back, so I'm
going to send it below my signature. Hope that's okay. Debby
The warmth of summer beating down, the birds singing their
evening song. We walk the hill, our voices bright and young,
hopeful. We sit on a bench, our bodies resting, muscles
relaxing. The fountain plays its gentle song, and I relax,
feeling the weariness ease away.
The bell rings, and from everywhere footsteps move toward the
church. We hurry to join those who have come to pray. The cool
interior of the church surrounds me, the smell of previous
incense coating the air.
I sit, the silence begins to envelop me. Footsteps, rustling
robes, the monks in their black and white processing in as they
have done for so many years. A path seems to be worn into the
floor from those footsteps, old monks who have prayed there for
years, down to the youngest monk who came the day before. Maybe
he too will someday walk that path in the floor, an old monk,
hunched with time and work.
The knock sounds, and the prayer begins, soft, suffused with
purity and holiness. A joy flows through me-i am here for this
night, and this night can last as long as I wish it to. The joy
is only half joy, because I would like to be there in the here
and now, but that is not possible. So I let the memory flow
around me. The prayer flows in and through me. I sing the words
softly in my head and heart.
The prayer ends, and in silence, the monks leave. I softly go to
my room, and sit before the open window. The fountain lulls me,
the remembered prayer surrounds me. I know at this moment that I
am fully, and forever loved.
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