[NAGDU] Update On My Girl

[Dani Pagador]

Hi, Everyone.
Peg was on Deremaxx and her limp seemed more pronounced, she seemed
more anxious, and wasn't right digestively. I asked the doctor what
the other alternative was, and she said I could either go back to
Previcox or try Rimadyl. I opted for the Rimadyl, though she did well
on the Previcox.

She's been on the new meds for a week, but her appetite's been sketchy
at best. She threw up Sunday night and Monday morning, and doc put her
on a bland diet. She ate willingly, but I had to make homemade broth
and rice--she wouldn't touch the canned stuff.

Her loss of appetite started Thursday, though she drank water and
wanted to go out. She didn't seem dehydrated, but by Saturday I was
worked something was up. David took her to the vet and we found out
that her kidneys are functioning at 25 percent. She's being given
fluids at home, is drinking, and hardly eats.

We take her back to the vet tomorrow, but David and I talked about
needing to let her go. She's herself mentally, but not physically.
It's been hard to watch her not eat, and I can't see having to watch
her starve herself just so selfish Dani can keep her girl around.

I'm trying to write this without crying, but it hits hard at
unexpected moments. What did I not see? She's been on kidney diet food
since December, and doc says kidney failure comes in older dogs.

She's lived a good long life, has been, and still is faithful, and
will always be my girl. Tight-fisted Dani wants to squeeze every last
moment she can get with Peg. Am I being mean to keep her around? Will
I be a bad Mom to put her to sleep just because she won't be able to
eat and things will get harder for her, bah the no-pain-for-CRF-thing.

All of this to ask you guys to hold your babies close, love them long,
and love them hard.

More Later,
Dani, rambling, struggling with herself, grateful for your support