[Blindtlk] Just Venting!

Sun May 31 02:43:02 UTC 2015

Cindy what do you mean by I don't have to go after every little thing?
I'm just trying to be responsible and be a contributing member of
society. After all, the Bible says if a man (person) don't work, he
don't eat. And yes I do go after opportunities, opportunities that
will benefit me but Not hurt anyone else. Why should I just sit still?
That wil only cause me to gain weight which I can't afford to do. I'll
try though I don't know what that will result  in but more frustration
and disapproval and sadness from those in my ear and air space. I get
tired of hearing yacka yacka yacka all damn day and being mocked
constantly okay?

Ray, Your points are well taken and for the record I never took
offense with any of your messages, everyone else's included. I just
get tired of being suddenly and seemingly forcefully unfruitful.

Chris, I like your suggestions very much. Do you know of a very simple
word processor. Because, I just bought Office 365 and went to install
it just now and my computer won't even allow me to enter the last 2
numbers of the Product  Key. Anyone know why this is so? As I stated I
just fixed this  laptop. Same thing happened with my Dell laptop when
I tried to install the Hot Spot card in-store and at-home. I am not
that technical. Oh well, peace to all else and good night.

Danielle

On 5/30/15, Ray Foret Jr via blindtlk <blindtlk at nfbnet.org> wrote:
> Hold on a second.  Pam is with the NFBL.  Please keep in mind I'm not saying
> you necessarily need the adult program at the center.  I don't know you:
> so, can't tell.  as for Voc rehab, they and I fell out a long time ago too:
> so, you see, I personally do understand your feelings about that bunch.
> Still, I offered what I did in the hope that perhaps Pam might know
> personally of resources outside those channels.  Besides, she's a good
> person to talk to and I suspect you could stand that about now.
>
>
> Sincerely,
> The Constantly Barefooted Ray
>
> Still a happy Mac, Verizon Wireless iPhone 6+ and Apple TV user!
>
> Sent from my Mac,
> the only computer with full accessibility for the blind built-in
>
>> On May 30, 2015, at 6:46 PM, Danielle Antoine via blindtlk
>> <blindtlk at nfbnet.org> wrote:
>>
>> So when you say agency for the blind I am assuming you mean Voc Rehab.
>> Been there done that. I got a Bachelorthen was working on a Master's
>> when it all fell apart. I could continue though after further review
>> of the program I realized I was probably in the wrong program like
>> there is a difference between M. Ed. and M.A. Anyway, I have forgotten
>> why I chose that and what it actually is good for. Went back to them
>> for another bachelor and also to buy some time to get myselftogether
>> and work on paying some student loans but they didn't pursue. I could
>> try the BEP program which my ex used to do and it seems everyone feels
>> that is a good fit for me but it isn't and I fear yet another failure
>> beyond my control. I would stay at Affiliated Blind of Louisiana (ABL)
>> for that. I would be alright workingfor someone already in the program
>> though since I had some experience before. How do I find that out
>> thougheven though THAT IS NOT my cup of tea.
>>
>> I get the impression though that once more and again we are back to
>> being led toward certain acceptable programs like BEP and VOC Rehab.
>> Why does the agency do that and why do we have to go along with it? Of
>> course, VR counseling is an option, but I know sighted folk definitely
>> get hired in that role without a qualifying Masters degree. I got 5 on
>> it I couldn't though. And yes, I been through the STEp program at LCB
>> but don't know how to justify going through the Adult Program.
>>
>> Thanks Everyone,
>>
>> Danielle
>> P.S. And with all this constant hacking I'm experiencing, I am led to
>> think someone might be in need of training but unable or more likely
>> unwilling to go somewhere and doing something about me so it is easier
>> to harass and shush me to cover up. I could be wrong though. Just my
>> thoughtful quiet observation. That or I'm just the wrong target in a
>> whole lot of confusion.
>>
>>
>> On 5/30/15, Ray Foret Jr via blindtlk <blindtlk at nfbnet.org> wrote:
>>> Danielle,
>>>
>>> Are you in Louisiana?  Perhaps as a first real step, you might want to
>>> give
>>> Pam Alan a call.  You'll be calling the Louisiana Center for the blind.
>>> Call this number:
>>> 800-234-4166
>>>
>>> I offer this in an effort to actually be substantively helpful.  Now,
>>> maybe
>>> you don't need the adult training program like what I went through, but,
>>> perhaps Pam can better direct you to help on a more effective basis.
>>>
>>>
>>> Sincerely,
>>> The Constantly Barefooted Ray
>>>
>>> Still a happy Mac, Verizon Wireless iPhone 6+ and Apple TV user!
>>>
>>> Sent from my Mac,
>>> the only computer with full accessibility for the blind built-in
>>>
>>>> On May 30, 2015, at 3:14 PM, Danielle Antoine via blindtlk
>>>> <blindtlk at nfbnet.org> wrote:
>>>>
>>>> right on point Ray. My only other options are go to a shelter or try
>>>> school again I don't know wwho could be in such need as to ruin one
>>>> person's life in particular? I unfortunately have never lied to the
>>>> government.I don't know how a person could trump their nees over
>>>> innocent children. Young innocent and even a person's unborn children.
>>>> How is that conscionable and all-around excusable?
>>>>
>>>> Quite frankly, I feel like me and my children have been, in effect,
>>>> murdered! What's funny, fun, cool and all alright about that? The only
>>>> reason I have written so poignantly hear is to save face for those who
>>>> just might be innocent and frankly, I have no where else to find
>>>> support since I am not involved in civil rights activism and I seem to
>>>> get abandoned and attacked or silenced elsewhere and just to try and
>>>> keep reasonably well I share in hope it REALLY WILL bring true,
>>>> meaningful help for ME as well as shine light on an ongoing problem
>>>> which I KNOW is drastically affecting others. Maybe someone WILL have
>>>> the CORRECT solution to stop this madness.
>>>>
>>>> Danielle
>>>> P.S Sad when it feels like there is no help in sight or available to
>>>> you and you alone.
>>>>
>>>> On 5/30/15, Danielle Antoine <singingmywayin at gmail.com> wrote:
>>>>> I'll keep trying with the government help.
>>>>>
>>>>> On 5/30/15, Danielle Antoine <singingmywayin at gmail.com> wrote:
>>>>>> Mostly out here, if you don't drive your option is a cab if not
>>>>>> family
>>>>>> and friends. Pretty much everybody works around here and it's about
>>>>>> 20
>>>>>> minutes to town so I am on my own. The places I have lived with
>>>>>> family
>>>>>> and friends since the divorce have been rural so transportation is
>>>>>> always an issue. Even checking the papes most of the places available
>>>>>> to rent appear to be rural and you need first month's rent and
>>>>>> deposit. I could get that in a couple of monts or four time but then
>>>>>> I
>>>>>> have to have extra to sustain. Any ideas?I guess I'll keep trying w
>>>>>>
>>>>>> On 5/30/15, Danielle Antoine <singingmywayin at gmail.com> wrote:
>>>>>>> Continuing on. Excuse the typos and lack of punctuation the last
>>>>>>> message. NVDa went somewhere else and was silent whenever I would
>>>>>>> arrowup, down, left or right so couldn't correct. So what I would
>>>>>>> need
>>>>>>> is continuous, dependable cash, support, my own children tliving
>>>>>>> with
>>>>>>> me, fully functioning dependable technology, and dependable
>>>>>>> transportation that wouldn't cost me so much and a lack of negative
>>>>>>> interference and lies.
>>>>>>>
>>>>>>> Danielle
>>>>>>> P.S I have beneifted from the government phone as well in the past.
>>>>>>> I
>>>>>>> now still have a prepaid phone.
>>>>>>>
>>>>>>> On 5/30/15, Danielle Antoine <singingmywayin at gmail.com> wrote:
>>>>>>>> Oh and thanks Ray. You know but it seems even everybody is  to the
>>>>>>>> point of breaking How convenient. It is all a big act erm, race
>>>>>>>> competition to see who can receive help or the most helpor and
>>>>>>>> recognition or to get out of wrongdoing. You know like verybody
>>>>>>>> wanna
>>>>>>>> plead insanity toget out of making restitution for wrongdoing and
>>>>>>>> pass
>>>>>>>> the blame and responsibility to others no apologies necessary.
>>>>>>>> That's
>>>>>>>> what it all seems like to me. I am done leading with my heart!
>>>>>>>> People
>>>>>>>> are quick to take advantage that way. Peaople who really needhelp
>>>>>>>> can't get it because somebody else who don't has beat them to the
>>>>>>>> punch.
>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>> Judy, the answer is no. I had a plan and was working towards
>>>>>>>> independence again and that got shot to hell. I mean after I got on
>>>>>>>> SSI, I applied for Food Stamps which I had until the courts gave
>>>>>>>> custody to my ex. Then, instead of decreasing me they automatically
>>>>>>>> cut me off.
>>>>>>>> Meanwhile, I had applied for, with the help of my sister and got a
>>>>>>>> job
>>>>>>>> substitute teaching but didn't have ransportation going back and
>>>>>>>> forth, was living with another friend for a while but wsh suddenly
>>>>>>>> acted like I was a burden before I ever got another call. I missed
>>>>>>>> the
>>>>>>>> first call because I had a prepaid phone and didn't have any
>>>>>>>> minutes
>>>>>>>> on the phone when the call came through. While living with that
>>>>>>>> friend
>>>>>>>> I got a list of low--income housing and went down the list for a
>>>>>>>> second time and applied to all the apartments I could, but only got
>>>>>>>> responses from one particular complex in my mother's name. I
>>>>>>>> corrected
>>>>>>>> the letter and told them yes I was interested and never heard from
>>>>>>>> them again. Mind you I said second time because the first time I
>>>>>>>> had
>>>>>>>> done this when I had my kids with me and I also had gotten a
>>>>>>>> housing
>>>>>>>> voucher. I ended up losing my voucher because I had to move from my
>>>>>>>> aunt's house since my ex would not follow the visitation rules and
>>>>>>>> would pick up the children from school and drop them off
>>>>>>>> periodically
>>>>>>>> and my aunt became scared which lead to falling out. Now when I
>>>>>>>> checked the last time the housing voucher list is closed as usual
>>>>>>>> as
>>>>>>>> it was in Baton rouge when I left. I have put in some applications
>>>>>>>> at
>>>>>>>> a nursing home here, a grocery store, the movie theater, and the
>>>>>>>> school system as a bus assistant but haven't heard from them which
>>>>>>>> I
>>>>>>>> am not necessarily complaining about at this point because I have
>>>>>>>> stiff joints and fatigue often but I don't have enough money saved
>>>>>>>> up
>>>>>>>> to travel everyday. My plan was to try and put an ad in the paper
>>>>>>>> for
>>>>>>>> a driver if I got called for interview I could do the bus assistant
>>>>>>>> because they would be able to puck me up. I had an app for Teacher
>>>>>>>> Assistant as we which would work with the bus but that was stolen
>>>>>>>> twice. So, at this point I am broke and broken
>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>> Danielle
>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>> On 5/30/15, Carly Mihalakis via blindtlk <blindtlk at nfbnet.org>
>>>>>>>> wrote:
>>>>>>>>> Good morning, Danielle,
>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>> What a racket!
>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>> Seems to me, you could be far too invested in, as I like to think
>>>>>>>>> of
>>>>>>>>> them, have been within my own experience, those animate paper
>>>>>>>>> weights
>>>>>>>>> every body seems so edgy over. What has worked for me is to
>>>>>>>>> utilize
>>>>>>>>> the comput for all the things you named I.E. getting travel
>>>>>>>>> instructions and relevant spellings, restaurant menus E-mail and
>>>>>>>>> the
>>>>>>>>> like but for me, no social media, no games, only cursory internet
>>>>>>>>> searches but I believe people particularly blind people are duped
>>>>>>>>> into believing they need all this shit when, if you just try
>>>>>>>>> letting
>>>>>>>>> the stuff you don't absolutely need, such as social media, go
>>>>>>>>> until
>>>>>>>>> such time that you come to terms with your relationship with the
>>>>>>>>> role
>>>>>>>>> of tech within your personal experience?
>>>>>>>>> Of course, this is what has worked for me, you might be like a
>>>>>>>>> really
>>>>>>>>> dedicated social mediite?
>>>>>>>>> Car
>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>> 11 PM 5/29/2015, Judy Jones via blindtlk wrote:
>>>>>>>>>> What would it take for you to get out on your own.  Have you
>>>>>>>>>> developed a step by step plan?
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>> Judy
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>> -----Original Message----- From: Danielle Antoine via blindtlk
>>>>>>>>>> Sent: Friday, May 29, 2015 5:32 PM
>>>>>>>>>> To: Blind Talk Mailing List
>>>>>>>>>> Cc: Danielle Antoine
>>>>>>>>>> Subject: Re: [Blindtlk] Just Venting!
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>> I'm alright but I have had it! I just wanna leave. No more games,
>>>>>>>>>> no
>>>>>>>>>> more appeasements, no more peacekeeping efforts on my part, no
>>>>>>>>>> more
>>>>>>>>>> acting like it's all okay because it's not. Just wanna be on my
>>>>>>>>>> own
>>>>>>>>>> again
>>>>>>>>>> ! I don't need help if it's not the way I need it! I'll be able
>>>>>>>>>> to
>>>>>>>>>> recover easier once I'm in charge of my own life in my own space.
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>> Alanna, yeah I know I have my own issues to resolve and that is
>>>>>>>>>> why
>>>>>>>>>> I
>>>>>>>>>> write albeit usually in my space. Problem is, all my spaces keep
>>>>>>>>>> getting taken away with computers always never functioning
>>>>>>>>>> properly
>>>>>>>>>> in
>>>>>>>>>> this way or that. Somebody is repeatedly breaking into my
>>>>>>>>>> computers
>>>>>>>>>> and everybody else act like either they don't know who it is and
>>>>>>>>>> refuse to make them stop or report them, or it does NOT matter
>>>>>>>>>> because
>>>>>>>>>> they all have Apple phones and Androids and don't seem to EVER
>>>>>>>>>> get
>>>>>>>>>> targeted. Frankly, I wwent to post brief ness on FB about it only
>>>>>>>>>> to
>>>>>>>>>> find FB is acting up and I can't post. The rest of my blind
>>>>>>>>>> friends
>>>>>>>>>> don't have these repeated computer problems and it is too the
>>>>>>>>>> point
>>>>>>>>>> where Windows has even gotten restricted in some places like I
>>>>>>>>>> can't
>>>>>>>>>> even access the start menu and I just paid $345 less than a month
>>>>>>>>>> ago
>>>>>>>>>> to fix this computer, $219 the month before to fix a desktop but
>>>>>>>>>> I
>>>>>>>>>> have no speech on it right now or place to set it up, and I have
>>>>>>>>>> one
>>>>>>>>>> more yet to go. I had to use MS Office on one that was zapped and
>>>>>>>>>> suddenly couldn't get on the Internet after I just bought a
>>>>>>>>>> wireless
>>>>>>>>>> Hot Spot card. It wasn't accessible for me and luckily the
>>>>>>>>>> company
>>>>>>>>>> discontinued it for me. I thought once they switched providers
>>>>>>>>>> over
>>>>>>>>>> hear all this would stop. Now I have to decide to buy another
>>>>>>>>>> battery
>>>>>>>>>> and charger for it or try to get Office Depot to put MS Office
>>>>>>>>>> 2013
>>>>>>>>>> on
>>>>>>>>>> this one, which I bought and is supposedly on that desktop. You
>>>>>>>>>> know
>>>>>>>>>> now it don't come on a CD-rom but a card with download
>>>>>>>>>> instructions.
>>>>>>>>>> Who can do much of anything without a word processor? This delays
>>>>>>>>>> me
>>>>>>>>>> though and I lost months and months of work wich I won't be able
>>>>>>>>>> to
>>>>>>>>>> retrieve unless I spend money on a battery and charger for a
>>>>>>>>>> dinosaur
>>>>>>>>>> as they say which is only 8 years old but totally in working
>>>>>>>>>> order
>>>>>>>>>> until........one fateful day.....today. They suddenl froze up and
>>>>>>>>>> went
>>>>>>>>>> black after I tried to make changes to NVDA. That's not including
>>>>>>>>>> the
>>>>>>>>>> $100 in transportation costs to drop off and retrieve them.
>>>>>>>>>> Anyway
>>>>>>>>>> I
>>>>>>>>>> end up losing everything I have saved to the hard drives because
>>>>>>>>>> it's
>>>>>>>>>> always an Optimize and Restore order. Makes me wonder if their
>>>>>>>>>> isn't
>>>>>>>>>> a
>>>>>>>>>> key of mine giving access to my computer out there. It all
>>>>>>>>>> started
>>>>>>>>>> once I divorced my ex and gradually got worse. Rather, he filed
>>>>>>>>>> for
>>>>>>>>>> divorce 5 years ago and made out like a bandit. That old you
>>>>>>>>>> can't
>>>>>>>>>> prove it cause your blind bit. Not passing blame but I can't
>>>>>>>>>> figure
>>>>>>>>>> where this is originating and want it to stop! These are not fun
>>>>>>>>>> games
>>>>>>>>>> to be playing with me. I don't know how I could possibly be safe
>>>>>>>>>> by
>>>>>>>>>> being shut down. It's gambling. Why do I need a computer? Simply
>>>>>>>>>> put,
>>>>>>>>>> to function. Communicate with the outside world, to get
>>>>>>>>>> information,
>>>>>>>>>> to job hunt, read mail, pay bills, for entertainment as in plaing
>>>>>>>>>> fun,
>>>>>>>>>> free harmless games for worthless points, to learn, work, keep up
>>>>>>>>>> with
>>>>>>>>>> latest trends inside and outside of the blindness community, get
>>>>>>>>>> addresses so I can plan my cab trips, look up spellings of
>>>>>>>>>> certain
>>>>>>>>>> words and anames, keep up with my children, shop, etc. It's just
>>>>>>>>>> senseless violence and passive aggression. I do agree about the
>>>>>>>>>> individual and family therapy but that likely will never happened
>>>>>>>>>> because black folk don't believe in getting counseling. Actually,
>>>>>>>>>> I
>>>>>>>>>> was in therapy when I was in the city. Thanks for the prayers,
>>>>>>>>>> hug
>>>>>>>>>> and
>>>>>>>>>> love.
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>> Danielle
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>> On 5/29/15, River Linda via blindtlk <blindtlk at nfbnet.org> wrote:
>>>>>>>>>>> Danielle,
>>>>>>>>>>> Big hug and love to you.
>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>> On Friday, May 29, 2015, Ray Foret Jr via blindtlk
>>>>>>>>>>> <blindtlk at nfbnet.org>
>>>>>>>>>>> wrote:
>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>> Well, Danielle, it sounds to me like you've had this huge
>>>>>>>>>>>> pile-on
>>>>>>>>>>>> building
>>>>>>>>>>>> and building and building up for quite a while now.  Frankly,
>>>>>>>>>>>> it
>>>>>>>>>>>> seems
>>>>>>>>>>>> to
>>>>>>>>>>>> me like there are a number of unresolved issues between you and
>>>>>>>>>>>> your
>>>>>>>>>>>> family:  but, the long and the short of it feels like this.
>>>>>>>>>>>> You
>>>>>>>>>>>> are
>>>>>>>>>>>> totally blind, and, your family, despite your best efforts,
>>>>>>>>>>>> doesn't
>>>>>>>>>>>> really
>>>>>>>>>>>> think of you as even a normal person but just some pitiful poor
>>>>>>>>>>>> blind
>>>>>>>>>>>> girl
>>>>>>>>>>>> to be looked after and pitied and felt sorry for and not let do
>>>>>>>>>>>> anything.
>>>>>>>>>>>> Some sighted people feel this way too, believe it or not.  So,
>>>>>>>>>>>> it's
>>>>>>>>>>>> not
>>>>>>>>>>>> necessarily a blindness thing:  but, in your case, and given
>>>>>>>>>>>> the
>>>>>>>>>>>> context
>>>>>>>>>>>> of
>>>>>>>>>>>> your remarks, it sure sounds like that in your case, it might
>>>>>>>>>>>> be
>>>>>>>>>>>> blindness
>>>>>>>>>>>> caused.  It also seems to me that you haven't just sat there
>>>>>>>>>>>> and
>>>>>>>>>>>> let
>>>>>>>>>>>> it
>>>>>>>>>>>> build up:  but rather, that you have made every effort after
>>>>>>>>>>>> effort
>>>>>>>>>>>> to
>>>>>>>>>>>> make
>>>>>>>>>>>> a difference:  but now, most recently, something has happened
>>>>>>>>>>>> that
>>>>>>>>>>>> has
>>>>>>>>>>>> caused you either to snap or else feel like you want to.  Have
>>>>>>>>>>>> I
>>>>>>>>>>>> figured
>>>>>>>>>>>> it
>>>>>>>>>>>> out about right?  Danelle, I wish I had a specific answer to
>>>>>>>>>>>> all
>>>>>>>>>>>> the
>>>>>>>>>>>> things
>>>>>>>>>>>> you say:  but, I suspect that some of the blind women on this
>>>>>>>>>>>> list
>>>>>>>>>>>> might
>>>>>>>>>>>> be
>>>>>>>>>>>> able to help you better with the specific items you list off.
>>>>>>>>>>>> I
>>>>>>>>>>>> merely
>>>>>>>>>>>> enter here because I am concerned, and wanted to lend what
>>>>>>>>>>>> moral
>>>>>>>>>>>> support
>>>>>>>>>>>> I
>>>>>>>>>>>> can to a fellow blind person who, it seems to me, is on the
>>>>>>>>>>>> edge
>>>>>>>>>>>> of
>>>>>>>>>>>> breaking.
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>> Sincerely,
>>>>>>>>>>>> The Constantly Barefooted Ray
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>> Still a happy Mac, Verizon Wireless iPhone 6+ and Apple TV
>>>>>>>>>>>> user!
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>> Sent from my Mac,
>>>>>>>>>>>> the only computer with full accessibility for the blind
>>>>>>>>>>>> built-in
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>> On May 29, 2015, at 2:22 PM, Danielle Antoine via blindtlk <
>>>>>>>>>>>> blindtlk at nfbnet.org <javascript:;>> wrote:
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>> I just cannot stand it when somebody say you can do something
>>>>>>>>>>>>> then
>>>>>>>>>>>>> let
>>>>>>>>>>>>> somebody else do it or just prevent you from doing so. Most
>>>>>>>>>>>>> often,
>>>>>>>>>>>>> it's always what I'm doing. Like for instance, my brother and
>>>>>>>>>>>>> sister
>>>>>>>>>>>>> didn't have jobs wasn't looking for jobs until I started. Well
>>>>>>>>>>>>> bless
>>>>>>>>>>>>> God Hallallujah, thank you Jesus, they both got jobs while I'm
>>>>>>>>>>>>> still
>>>>>>>>>>>>> sitting at home. In fact, it cost me more because they have
>>>>>>>>>>>>> transporation and drive whereas, I don't have those luxuries
>>>>>>>>>>>>> and
>>>>>>>>>>>>> where
>>>>>>>>>>>>> Im located it's really not feasible for me to work even if I
>>>>>>>>>>>>> was
>>>>>>>>>>>>> in
>>>>>>>>>>>>> optimal health. Anyway, my sister followed through with the
>>>>>>>>>>>>> apps
>>>>>>>>>>>>> I
>>>>>>>>>>>>> got
>>>>>>>>>>>>> for her and my brother didn't and my mom allowed it; they both
>>>>>>>>>>>>> got
>>>>>>>>>>>>> hired through someone else's efforts in the end. I hoe they
>>>>>>>>>>>>> keep
>>>>>>>>>>>>> their
>>>>>>>>>>>>> jobs this time! They both are lucky and have no problems
>>>>>>>>>>>>> getting
>>>>>>>>>>>>> hired
>>>>>>>>>>>>> with minimal effort! I have a lot of time on my hands so can
>>>>>>>>>>>>> devote
>>>>>>>>>>>>> to
>>>>>>>>>>>>> a few mmindless things that don't require me to think so hard
>>>>>>>>>>>>> or
>>>>>>>>>>>>> use
>>>>>>>>>>>>> much energy. So, why all this unnecessary stress and
>>>>>>>>>>>>> aggravation.
>>>>>>>>>>>>> For
>>>>>>>>>>>>> my blind parents, how do you go about picking baby gear on
>>>>>>>>>>>>> your
>>>>>>>>>>>>> own?
>>>>>>>>>>>>> I
>>>>>>>>>>>>> lost my babies oh about a couple of months ago and my other
>>>>>>>>>>>>> prior
>>>>>>>>>>>>> three children live with their father. but I had gotten the
>>>>>>>>>>>>> okay
>>>>>>>>>>>>> from
>>>>>>>>>>>>> a couple of friends prior to all this to document pattern
>>>>>>>>>>>>> descriptions
>>>>>>>>>>>>> and everytime I start I can never get very far do to computer
>>>>>>>>>>>>> breakage, stealing of software, hacking and such through no
>>>>>>>>>>>>> fault
>>>>>>>>>>>>> of
>>>>>>>>>>>>> my own. As we all know, our technology is expensive and can
>>>>>>>>>>>>> not
>>>>>>>>>>>>> easily
>>>>>>>>>>>>> be replaced in a day or so. Even whene we fix one thing such
>>>>>>>>>>>>> as
>>>>>>>>>>>>> the
>>>>>>>>>>>>> laptop or desktop, we still need to install a screen reader,
>>>>>>>>>>>>> and
>>>>>>>>>>>>> now
>>>>>>>>>>>>> MS Office since it is now not standard and if you have
>>>>>>>>>>>>> scanning
>>>>>>>>>>>>> software so it is not off the shelf ready to rock and roll. I
>>>>>>>>>>>>> am
>>>>>>>>>>>>> on
>>>>>>>>>>>>> SSI only. Believe me, this has to be somebody sighted who
>>>>>>>>>>>>> wouldn't
>>>>>>>>>>>>> want this job if they had it but I am happy to do it. I really
>>>>>>>>>>>>> started
>>>>>>>>>>>>> doing this out of sheer frustration. Since my niece came
>>>>>>>>>>>>> along,
>>>>>>>>>>>>> the
>>>>>>>>>>>>> adults in her life started buying everything with like
>>>>>>>>>>>>> characters
>>>>>>>>>>>>> and
>>>>>>>>>>>>> such when it would've made mor sense for them to buy colored
>>>>>>>>>>>>> stuff.
>>>>>>>>>>>>> Like for real people! They can see things like, tangerine,
>>>>>>>>>>>>> gold,
>>>>>>>>>>>>> Everest, purple, onyx, Paisley, Fuschia, Bromley, Go Green,
>>>>>>>>>>>>> Cameron,
>>>>>>>>>>>>> Saturn, Cowmooflage  and such like that. I mean, really what
>>>>>>>>>>>>> does
>>>>>>>>>>>>> that
>>>>>>>>>>>>> mean to a total who has never seen colors or seen them clear
>>>>>>>>>>>>> enough
>>>>>>>>>>>>> in
>>>>>>>>>>>>> their life? Those are just examples of pattern names And
>>>>>>>>>>>>> colors
>>>>>>>>>>>>> which
>>>>>>>>>>>>> they can esily coordinate accordingly rather than snatching up
>>>>>>>>>>>>> any
>>>>>>>>>>>>> and
>>>>>>>>>>>>> everything. My sister knew she was having  a girl and instead
>>>>>>>>>>>>> she
>>>>>>>>>>>>> got
>>>>>>>>>>>>> neutral stuff as well. what ever happened to commonsense,
>>>>>>>>>>>>> courtesy,
>>>>>>>>>>>>> consideration, feelings, and boundaries? My mom denied my
>>>>>>>>>>>>> pregnancy
>>>>>>>>>>>>> though so I hope she is happy with my loss on top of me being
>>>>>>>>>>>>> unable
>>>>>>>>>>>>> to honor the visitation agreement with my children since she
>>>>>>>>>>>>> and
>>>>>>>>>>>>> my
>>>>>>>>>>>>> ex
>>>>>>>>>>>>> have serious beef! I should also mention ther have been about
>>>>>>>>>>>>> 10
>>>>>>>>>>>>> babies in total born since she has and that is what so angers
>>>>>>>>>>>>> me
>>>>>>>>>>>>> even
>>>>>>>>>>>>> more. Also, most of her things relate back to my own teenage
>>>>>>>>>>>>> and
>>>>>>>>>>>>> preteen's likes. In fact, my mom bought the exact same car
>>>>>>>>>>>>> seat
>>>>>>>>>>>>> I
>>>>>>>>>>>>> had
>>>>>>>>>>>>> bought for my first son with a zoo theme! I should say that my
>>>>>>>>>>>>> sister
>>>>>>>>>>>>> was in jail but she knew what she was having before she went
>>>>>>>>>>>>> in
>>>>>>>>>>>>> and
>>>>>>>>>>>>> did not prepare. So about a month before my niece's arrival I
>>>>>>>>>>>>> started
>>>>>>>>>>>>> looking at gear and stuff for her. I had planned to buy
>>>>>>>>>>>>> everything
>>>>>>>>>>>>> she
>>>>>>>>>>>>> needed since I had saved a little money up, to take the worry
>>>>>>>>>>>>> from
>>>>>>>>>>>>> her
>>>>>>>>>>>>> and my mom who I was sure going fo likely get her and at the
>>>>>>>>>>>>> time
>>>>>>>>>>>>> was
>>>>>>>>>>>>> talking about moving to where we are now with more space for
>>>>>>>>>>>>> my
>>>>>>>>>>>>> sisters kids. Of course, I was looking at sex appropriate
>>>>>>>>>>>>> things
>>>>>>>>>>>>> for
>>>>>>>>>>>>> her from the diaper bag to the crib to a few toys and
>>>>>>>>>>>>> washcloths.
>>>>>>>>>>>>> I
>>>>>>>>>>>>> figure when its coming out of someone else's pocket it
>>>>>>>>>>>>> shouldn't
>>>>>>>>>>>>> matter thow much it cost since you didn't have nothing anyway.
>>>>>>>>>>>>> At
>>>>>>>>>>>>> that
>>>>>>>>>>>>> time, I wasn't expecting.
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
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