[Diabetes-Talk] A bit of a rant

[Terri Stimmel]

Hello everyone,


I apologize for this message. I think I just need some support, and 
feedback. This isn't really a rant per say. More just me letting out 
some frustration.


As you all know, I have been really working hard to restructure how I am 
eating. It's been a struggle. But for the most part, I am enjoying 
making the changes. Also, I feel like I have great support. So this is 
definitely a plus.


However, the last few days have been a bit rough for me. I feel like 
maybe I am not always eating enough. But also I feel I am struggling, 
due to things my boyfriend thinks. Now don't get me wrong, he's very 
loving, and supportive. And he has been trying to make changes right 
along with me. But earlier today when my blood sugar was low, he 
suggested I eat some chocolate. On one hand, I think he was trying to be 
funny. But also, I know that he feels like when the doctors, or 
specialists suggest things to eat, or watching carbs, that you eat bland 
foods. He makes a lot of comments about that. I know he struggles a lot 
when it comes to not ordering out a meal. Which I can as well. Although, 
it's getting easier for me.


So my biggest concern is that I am still having lows. At least, I think 
that I am. I say think, because I used my Libre. But I also used a 
Prodigy meater to check my blood sugar. Earlier, about an hour ago, my 
Libre showed my blood sugar at 54. I didn't feel shaky, or sweaty. 
That's how I can get when it's low. But I felt tired, and kind of 
depressed. Maybe a bit irritable.

But when I checked with the meater right after checking with the Libre, 
my blood sugar was 95.


Last night, the same thing happened. It was about 2 and a half hours 
after we had eaten dinner. We had Marie Calendar, chicken pot pies. I 
took my 30 units of insulin before we ate. I didn't eat anything else 
after dinner.


But when I checked with my Libre, it was 46. So I checked with the 
Prodigy. It was 93.

So which is accurate? Isn't that too big of a difference between the 
Libre, and the Prodigy?


I do plan to call my doctor, or contact the nurse practisioner and let 
her know what's going on. But I want to try to manage it better on my 
own, if I can.


For lunch today I ate a turkey sandwich. I ate it on this Healthy Life 
bread. I had just one slice of the bread. I used Land O Frost, honey 
smoked turkey, 2 slices. I put a little bit of Sobra, garlic hummus on 
the sandwich. Then I had a strawberry greek yogurt. I know the brand of 
it. But I don't have a clue as to how to spell it. I know that I 
probably haven't spelled a lot of this properly. Sorry for this. But I 
know you all will understand. But please don't hesitate to ask me what I 
might have meant, if you ever can't figure something out.


Did I not eat enough carbs?

I thought with this kind of lunch that I would be good. I didn't expect 
to get the low I got. I'm thinking that if I continue to eat like this, 
that I might need less insulin overall, and not just the change she made 
at breakfast.


Sometimes, when I think about get-togethers with friends, or church 
events, or the holidays, I feel sad, and guilty. I know this doesn't 
likely make a lot of sense. But I feel like if I don't eat all the yummy 
desserts, or starchy foods, my friends won't get it. Or it's just 
another reason I might stand out, or not fit in. Another thing to add to 
the list.


Does this make any sense?

I feel silly for saying this. But it's how I feel, and what I think 
about sometimes. I know it's ok to have something sometimes. I know it's 
all about moderation, and making better choices. I'm glad to be doing 
it, for the most part. I want to do this. But I honestly never thought 
that I'd feel sad over it.


So that's it. That's what's been going on. And this has been going 
through my mind.


Thank you for listening. If this isn't the type of stuff for the list, 
please feel free to let me know.


I hope all of you are well.


Terri