[Faith-talk] being healed from blindness

[debby phillips]

Hi Greg, first I want to tell you what a balanced and mature way 
you have of looking at this whole subject.  You have struggled, I 
can tell in the compassionate way you write about this, but God 
has brought about maturity in your life because of this.  You are 
not bitter and angry though you may have been at some time.  
Thank you for sharing with us.

I must say that I had some similar experiences as you.  In fact, 
I used to walk around without my cane because I was taught that I 
"only had the symptoms of blindness".  Of course, when I smacked 
in to a tree, I decided that I might want to use my cane.  I 
became so angry with God.  I looked up all the references to 
blindness I could find.  It was terrible.  I let the anger and 
bitterness overwhelm me.  One day went for a walk and I was 
praying.  Actually I was yelling at God, not outwardly, but 
definitely yelling.  I said to Jesus, "Well, You certainly have 
no idea what it was like to be blind, you had 20/20 vision." It 
was almost as if I heard an audible voice when He replied to me, 
"They blindfolded me." I went home and found in Stark, chapter 14 
verse 65, I think where they did blindfold Jesus, and beat Him 
and then asked, "Who hit you?" I cried and cried then, hot tears 
of sorrow, sorrow that I had accused Jesus of not understanding, 
sorrow for all the bitterness I felt, and at last, tears of 
healing.  I haven't always had the perfect attitude about my 
blindness, but I no longer hate myself because I am blind.  If 
people pray for me then I accept it, but I do tell them that God 
heals in His own way, and He will heal me in the way I need, 
whether it be spiritually, emotionally or physically.    
Blessings,    Debby