[Faith-Talk] concerning me serving and bit of my story

Fri Dec 6 21:09:32 UTC 2019

Hi  actually there is probably 3 or 4 or 5 churches and then there are
churches in surrounding communities but i been to quite a few and it
is hard to find get my needs met.

On 12/6/19, Ericka via Faith-Talk <faith-talk at nfbnet.org> wrote:
> Andrew, please write me off list. You and my husband seem to have a lot in
> common except he’s older than you. Perhaps between the two of you you can’t
> either solve this problem or at least you have a Christian friend who
> understands for support. Sorry were in the US. I guess Wisconsin isn’t too
> far from the Canadian border. LOL I will give you my husbands email and cell
> phone number off-line. I am going to forward your email message  So he can
> help you better and let him know that this person is going to contact him.
>
> We have not been prayed over or told our faith isn’t strong enough to see
> too often thankfully. But this is really crazy and unless you have strong
> scriptural information to change their hearts and minds they will always see
> you as someone who sin prevents you from seeing or whatever crazy thought
> they have. I would go to different churches if you can and attend a couple
> of services, talk to the pastor and maybe do some googling about the
> denomination or nondenominational beliefs. Some people call his church
> shopping. You’ll know what feels right and where you are most excepted. Keep
> talking to Jesus. I know that It’s tough to do in a small community. Some
> communities only have two churches and not necessarily within the city
> limits. My heart goes out to you and so do my prayers.
>
> Ericka Nelson
>
>> On Dec 5, 2019, at 10:20 PM, andrew edgcumbe via Faith-Talk
>> <faith-talk at nfbnet.org> wrote:
>>
>> Hi as i almost started to reply again i realized that the subject line
>> did not reflect my stuff what a fool i am as i want acerate subject
>> lines. so trying to do what we w told to do. Anyway getting into what
>> I said in the other emails. I think I will put some of my story or my
>> story.  Anyway before i talk about my struggles actually they might
>> end up within my story. it might be shorter then some will see. Anyway
>> I was born in a Christian home. I  at that time had some site but I
>> lost the rest of my sight at the age of 11. I  lost rest of my site at
>> age 11 due to retnal detachment.  after that i couldn't see colours i
>> could see nothing at all. I did ask the lord into my heart around age
>> 13. I also did that when I sat in bedroom with my mom when i prayed
>> the sinners prayer and asked him in.  I did end up not really praying
>> or paying much attention to scripture or prayer   some time after
>> that. I  did come back running back to Christ after that.  I asked the
>> lord redeadicated my life back to christ actually. I actually  after
>> that got baptized  and around the time of my baptism I  was going to a
>> school for the blind I didn't have an easy time of it when I went to
>> the school for the blind the year and a half i was there.  had hardest
>> time with room mates. and just being bullied and things. I never was
>> bullied much until i went to the school for the blind in Brantford.
>> So i did finally graduate from school for the blind  which i was so
>> glad to be able to do.  After that I did go through a month or two
>> month employment program i did get a small job at a furniture factory.
>> I actually ran into struggles then even one night I felt really down i
>> felt like I had no real friends I had thoughts of wanting to end my
>> life.  but no  plan to do anything though.  but anyway a person who i
>> had been talking to that night  reported me to the police and the cops
>> came to check on me to make sure i was safe. I did go  into counciling
>> actually. I  had something happen to similar affect happen 2 or 3
>> years later when somebody from the blind community was involved who
>> called cops that is but anyway I have had allot of struggles fitting
>> into church over  all i could go to groups bible studdies or sunday
>> morning stuff but it was problematic when it comes to those serv
>> letting me serve there were times pastor almost gave me that glimmer
>> of hope when it came to serving then was not long before that was
>> taken from me as he brought up my blindness. even recently i was
>> talking to somebody who is blind who said that pastors can be hezatant
>> on letting the blind serve.  I have been excluded from certain
>> activities when people get into clicks. Friendships is something I
>> have really needed. I was told by some i needed a healing and that the
>> devil stole my sight.  I also have had experiences where even some
>> places  i tried to vollunteer at wouldn't let me even. I do live in a
>> small town. Anyway just september 2019 I had another issue i got
>> talking to somebody i may have said i was going to give up but can't
>> recall what i said but at 1 30 the police had showed up to my place
>> now let me back track before i we go any further. I used to live with
>> my parents.  in 2016 I  moved into town and get bit of help from some
>> support staff but for most part i am fairly independent although i
>> have desire to do even more independently for myself. but anyway cops
>> came around 1 30  in the morning. I  got knock from staff and in came
>> the two cops behind him first off staff said are you feeling okay and
>> then he said somebody is here to see you was his words. Anyway  they
>> talked to me for a bit but anyway my building soupervisor came to chat
>> with me the next morning.  My life has not been easy.  I been
>> searching for stuff and often what I been feeling is like something is
>> missing in my life. when it comes to friends or something like that.
>> I  am trying to find my purpose in life and it has been hard. I  been
>> needing some sort of purpose in my life and stuff like that and need
>> ways of  vollunteer and  things i can do as i need things i can do so
>> I can be both fophiled and things to do that have a purpose to them.
>> I have not parked myself in a particular church and i really unsure if
>> i really fit in any church at all it often feels that way to me
>> anyway.  and it is like people can't help me be involved in a sence
>> and i don't get anywhere when i bring it up. as I said i live in a
>> small town so it can be much harder to find things to do and small
>> tons may or may not have much.  As i said I really going to church to
>> church sort of in a sence as i have trouble finding some sence of
>> belonging as i both want to serve and want to be around or have
>> connection with christian people my age. I am 32 years old.  and i
>> want to connect with people my age.  i been searching for answers and
>> searching for needs of mine at timeas actually quite often I feel
>> restless and stuff like that.  I  am connected with canadian nfb
>> canadian version but i have not gotten anywhere with them it is kind
>> of hard when somebody isn't here to know how to help me inless they
>> are there near me.  There is no blind groups in my area that get
>> together and stuff like that.  Thanks for letting me share.
>>
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