[Faith-Talk] concerning me serving and bit of my story

[Ericka]

Andrew, please write me off list. You and my husband seem to have a lot in common except he’s older than you. Perhaps between the two of you you can’t either solve this problem or at least you have a Christian friend who understands for support. Sorry were in the US. I guess Wisconsin isn’t too far from the Canadian border. LOL I will give you my husbands email and cell phone number off-line. I am going to forward your email message  So he can help you better and let him know that this person is going to contact him.

We have not been prayed over or told our faith isn’t strong enough to see too often thankfully. But this is really crazy and unless you have strong scriptural information to change their hearts and minds they will always see you as someone who sin prevents you from seeing or whatever crazy thought they have. I would go to different churches if you can and attend a couple of services, talk to the pastor and maybe do some googling about the denomination or nondenominational beliefs. Some people call his church shopping. You’ll know what feels right and where you are most excepted. Keep talking to Jesus. I know that It’s tough to do in a small community. Some communities only have two churches and not necessarily within the city limits. My heart goes out to you and so do my prayers.

Ericka Nelson

> On Dec 5, 2019, at 10:20 PM, andrew edgcumbe via Faith-Talk <faith-talk at nfbnet.org> wrote:
> 
> Hi as i almost started to reply again i realized that the subject line
> did not reflect my stuff what a fool i am as i want acerate subject
> lines. so trying to do what we w told to do. Anyway getting into what
> I said in the other emails. I think I will put some of my story or my
> story.  Anyway before i talk about my struggles actually they might
> end up within my story. it might be shorter then some will see. Anyway
> I was born in a Christian home. I  at that time had some site but I
> lost the rest of my sight at the age of 11. I  lost rest of my site at
> age 11 due to retnal detachment.  after that i couldn't see colours i
> could see nothing at all. I did ask the lord into my heart around age
> 13. I also did that when I sat in bedroom with my mom when i prayed
> the sinners prayer and asked him in.  I did end up not really praying
> or paying much attention to scripture or prayer   some time after
> that. I  did come back running back to Christ after that.  I asked the
> lord redeadicated my life back to christ actually. I actually  after
> that got baptized  and around the time of my baptism I  was going to a
> school for the blind I didn't have an easy time of it when I went to
> the school for the blind the year and a half i was there.  had hardest
> time with room mates. and just being bullied and things. I never was
> bullied much until i went to the school for the blind in Brantford.
> So i did finally graduate from school for the blind  which i was so
> glad to be able to do.  After that I did go through a month or two
> month employment program i did get a small job at a furniture factory.
> I actually ran into struggles then even one night I felt really down i
> felt like I had no real friends I had thoughts of wanting to end my
> life.  but no  plan to do anything though.  but anyway a person who i
> had been talking to that night  reported me to the police and the cops
> came to check on me to make sure i was safe. I did go  into counciling
> actually. I  had something happen to similar affect happen 2 or 3
> years later when somebody from the blind community was involved who
> called cops that is but anyway I have had allot of struggles fitting
> into church over  all i could go to groups bible studdies or sunday
> morning stuff but it was problematic when it comes to those serv
> letting me serve there were times pastor almost gave me that glimmer
> of hope when it came to serving then was not long before that was
> taken from me as he brought up my blindness. even recently i was
> talking to somebody who is blind who said that pastors can be hezatant
> on letting the blind serve.  I have been excluded from certain
> activities when people get into clicks. Friendships is something I
> have really needed. I was told by some i needed a healing and that the
> devil stole my sight.  I also have had experiences where even some
> places  i tried to vollunteer at wouldn't let me even. I do live in a
> small town. Anyway just september 2019 I had another issue i got
> talking to somebody i may have said i was going to give up but can't
> recall what i said but at 1 30 the police had showed up to my place
> now let me back track before i we go any further. I used to live with
> my parents.  in 2016 I  moved into town and get bit of help from some
> support staff but for most part i am fairly independent although i
> have desire to do even more independently for myself. but anyway cops
> came around 1 30  in the morning. I  got knock from staff and in came
> the two cops behind him first off staff said are you feeling okay and
> then he said somebody is here to see you was his words. Anyway  they
> talked to me for a bit but anyway my building soupervisor came to chat
> with me the next morning.  My life has not been easy.  I been
> searching for stuff and often what I been feeling is like something is
> missing in my life. when it comes to friends or something like that.
> I  am trying to find my purpose in life and it has been hard. I  been
> needing some sort of purpose in my life and stuff like that and need
> ways of  vollunteer and  things i can do as i need things i can do so
> I can be both fophiled and things to do that have a purpose to them.
> I have not parked myself in a particular church and i really unsure if
> i really fit in any church at all it often feels that way to me
> anyway.  and it is like people can't help me be involved in a sence
> and i don't get anywhere when i bring it up. as I said i live in a
> small town so it can be much harder to find things to do and small
> tons may or may not have much.  As i said I really going to church to
> church sort of in a sence as i have trouble finding some sence of
> belonging as i both want to serve and want to be around or have
> connection with christian people my age. I am 32 years old.  and i
> want to connect with people my age.  i been searching for answers and
> searching for needs of mine at timeas actually quite often I feel
> restless and stuff like that.  I  am connected with canadian nfb
> canadian version but i have not gotten anywhere with them it is kind
> of hard when somebody isn't here to know how to help me inless they
> are there near me.  There is no blind groups in my area that get
> together and stuff like that.  Thanks for letting me share.
> 
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