[nagdu] Tired, depressed and discouraged

[Gail]

Well, we got back a little while ago, and I dont know what to think or do. 
The doc ran the Humphries *again* (third time now), and got the same kind of

Results. He just cant figure why-or accept- I see the dots around that 
Central light, and miss the others. It doesnt matter that I tell him 1)its 
Hard to sit there staring at that tiny yellow dot *and* catch all the white 
Dots. 2) its hard to keep my concentration from wandering now and then, so 
That makes me lose some of them. 3) I see them, but I always click fast 
Enough to catch one before another pops up.4) some I miss just because I 
Have things floating in my eyes becaue of being tired or headache, so those 
Can distract or cover dots. 
 
So, now he seems to have backed out of the Dxs he had given me before, and 
Now wants me to have an MRI and go to Kansas City- a drive of over 100 miles

One way- to see a neuro there. I'm so tired and depressed that I cant 
Remember any more of what he said. But that trip will be expensive for us-we
have been married 20 years, and have never been able to afford to go to KC
for anything other than to the airport to pick up someone-exhausting for me,
and I'm supposed to go there and be in one piece for more testing?! This is
getting weirder every time we go to this guy, but he keeps saying he has to
have this done. Yeah, like he said today's Humphries would be the definite
test....
 
 
But when three tests have the same results, of the visual field being the 
Same, why cant he accept that I have problems/legally blind, and we take 
Care of the KC trip some other time? This guy is driving me nuts, with his 
Inability to stick with one dx or accept what tests show him.... And with
not even the dx he gave me 2 weeks ago, I'm toast. 
 
Gail