[stylist] having obviously different eyes
James Canaday M.A. N6YR
n6yr at sunflower.com
Mon Feb 16 22:43:58 UTC 2009
kasondra and Barbara,
one result of my experiences with my eyes, and being the object of
girls' revulsion was I carried a lot of anger toward girls my own age.
I imagine you found some emotional relief having the prosthetics,
both of you.
barb,
it does feel good to get those comments, but for me that was only
after I had accepted them myself.
having such eyes really sets you apart, gives you you very different
experiences.
now, I can't imagine going back to having deformed eyes. people tell
me I am perhaps handsome, but after having deformed eyes such
comments go in one ear and out the other. I know consciously that
the occularist did a really good job making these eyes. but the
experience of twenty-five years with obviously deformed eyes makes
my first reaction to be a bit shy and to consider my appearance as
poorer than others.
jc
Jim Canaday M.A.
Lawrence, KS
At 11:07 AM 2/16/2009, you wrote:
>I was born with cataracts in both eyes. The cataract in my right
>eye was removed when I was a baby, I developed glaucoma in that eye
>some years later. The cataract in my left eye was removed when I
>was thirteen, and I had some sight in both eyes for the next year
>and a half. My retina in my right eye detached during my freshman
>year of high school after a surgery to control the pressure. Later,
>an inflammation invaded the remaining eye, and caused a lot of pain
>and havoc.
>
>At about that time, a young man named Shawn entered my life. We had
>met in church several years before, but we hated each
>other. Finally we decided that the other was worth a second
>look. Even though we were too young to date, he was my closest
>friend, and he attended Church dances and activities just to be with
>me. He understood how I had been teased and left out because he had
>got it too because he was overweight. He is one of the few people
>who knows what I looked like before I got my prosthetic shell over
>the emploded mess of my right eye.
>
>Shawn and I dated during most of high school. We drifted apart, and
>we didn't see each other for four and a half years. I dated others,
>but they weren't right. I had believed as a teenager that Shawn was
>the right one for me.
>
>I thank God that he brought us back together in January of 1999. We
>were married on July 17, 1999. Shawn has always accepted my
>blindness, and he joined the NFB before we got married. Shawn is
>sighted, and sometimes he has become the default driver for events,
>and he is always willing to help. He has learned Braille and had
>cane travel lessons. Two of our children are blind, and he has
>been right there wit me to make sure that they have the education
>and skills they need.
>
>Yes, my eyes look different. Sighted people think my right eye is
>real, and they do not believe that it is fake--until I pop it out
>and show them. I am so thankful that I have a sweet man by my side
>who accepts me no matter how my eyes look!
>
>-----Original Message-----
>From: James Canaday M.A. N6YR <n6yr at sunflower.com>
>Sent: Sunday, February 15, 2009 7:04 PM
>To: stylist at nfbnet.org
>Subject: [stylist] having obviously different eyes
>
>
> I'd posted this under the thoughtprovoker-love, and thought I'd
> repost on its own topic in case anybody wants to discuss this. I
> found and fixed some typos, too.
> I understand what you express about your eyes, I understand it first-hand.
> I was born with a half dozen eye deformities, some of which weren't
> supposed to occur in the same eyes. the miracle was I had some
> limited left eye vision
> until I was thirteen when a generalized inflamation whiped out my
> retinas in the seeing and unseeing eyes. so, besides the
> deformities, my eyes then always looked
> perminently bloodshot. one eye was smaller than the other.
>
> I could never ever even think of getting a date in high school. many
> times on the high school campus I would first become aware of one or
> more girls staring
> at me because I would hear "eewwwwww!" I did go to the Prom, a third
> party arranged for me to go with a Japanese girl who had braces. I
> don't think she
> was happy to go with me but she did. we had no relationship after that.
> when I was twenty-five, the scarring from that general inflamation
> was calcifying, hardening, and one of my birth defects was
> glaucoma. put these two together
> and you get very painful eyes.
>
> so, mine were removed. the eyes I have now made by the occularist
> are quite nice and people really like them. they absolutely cannot
> tell they are prosthetics.
>
> yes, sighted women love to look in their men's eyes, especially at
> special moments. but there are women who are of a deeper disposition
> who will see your
> heart, and if you have a good character, they will find that very
> attractive Justin.
>
> having deformed eyes is hard, I won't lie to you about that. but
> there are other things in life. and the really good women won't be
> put off by deformed
> eyes.
>
> ---
> to add, after the removal of my eyes, it took me some months to
> adjust to having prosthetics. that was hard too. it felt strange,
> though my ugly deformed eyes were gone I had to learn to use the
> prosthetics and to have them as part of my appearance and who I am.
>
> jc
>
> Jim Canaday M.A.
> Lawrence, KS
>
>
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