[stylist] Walking Mirrors
Bridgit Pollpeter
bpollpeter at hotmail.com
Wed Sep 21 02:18:57 UTC 2011
I do agree that how we respond says a lot to people we encounter.
Blindness has never been viewed medically, socially, professionally or
culturally as a perfectly exceptable way to live. The "fear" of the
unknown trumps any logic that could make living as a blind person okay.
When we react with anger, we do nothing to change minds; after all, who
wants to associate with a bear on a rampage? It turns people off.
However, I completely understand the frustration of dealing with the
ignorant people and those who assume. Just today, while at the doctor, I
couldn't find my signature guide. Ross, the hubby, likes to come with me
to my appointments if he can. I called him over so I could borrow his
signature guide, but the front desk worker said, "Oh, he's going to sign
for you?" This came after asking if it was okay for me to sign some
paperwork. I didn't flip, but inside I was seething. The real rub is
that Ross is blind too and carries a cane, so I never quite know how to
take this.
Why are we expected to smile and make these people feel okay? Why do we
have to be belittled, demeaned, treated like children, have our ability
to care for ourselves, and others, questioned? No, not everyone acts
this way, but many do. We are expected to accept ignorance and
ridiculous perceptions, but no one is ever expected to accept that we're
adults with lives, and when people encounter us out-and-about, we must
be okay seeing we are doing things on our own. Instead, they get to
accept we're less capable, and when sighted people are around, we have
saviors who can provide us some helpful cheer for the day.
I come from a fully sighted perspective. I was sighted for 22 years, and
when I lost my vision, I didn't lose who I was. I retained all the same
interests, opinions, personality; yet, I enter a room, and far to many
people don't look past the cane.
Having been blind for only eight years, I find it difficult to accept
this. I want to be exceptional, but not because I can tie my shoes. I
want to stand out, but not because I walk down the street without
bumping into objects. I want to inspire, but not because I have overcome
the obstacles of blindness, which tend to be negative views as opposed
to blindness itself. Everything I do is viewed in the context of
blindness.
Long before I knew about the Federation or skills of the blind or
training, I naturally understood that as a blind person, I could still
be me; I could still do the same things. When I learned of the
Federation and its views on blindness, I thought, wow, finally someone
else gets it. I didn't question my abilities; I didn't think limitations
were a part of the blindness package. This is what upsets me and
frustrates me. People don't get it- blind and sighted. We're people with
feelings, thoughts, emotions, talents, and not everything revolves
around blindness. And not everything is a huge obstacle. Our life
experience isn't different, and 99% of the time, our difficulties lay in
the perceptions and attitudes projected by society.
Instead of figuring things out, and seeking solutions, we accept these
perceptions of reality as truth. We think blindness creates a barrier we
must push through for every little thing. I can't speak Swahili, have no
concept of it, don't know the first thing, doesn't mean I don't believe
others can speak it and learn it. This is what we do with blindness; we
have no concept of how to live nonvisually; we can't fathom how to do
things, so we decide to assume it's impossible. Yet, there are those of
us who know better. We live every day accomplishing all sorts of things
nonvisually, yet no one wants to believe us.
So this is why we get frustrated. This is why we blow up sometimes.
People may intend to be kind and helpful, but, especially as an adult,
it becomes tiresome to have people assume I need help for every little
thing. I'm not defending irate behavior, but I do understand the
sentiment.
Humans are complex creatures. So much influences us, negatively and
positively. Our family, environment, pop culture, friends, our own
natural personality. Why some view disability different than others,
who's to say? And while I don't believe in skinning people alive, I also
think it's unfair to always be expected to surrender to society's
"kindness" because they "don't know better." When children misbehave
because they don't know better, do we allow the behavior to go
unchecked? No, so why do we allow ignorant behavior to slide in adults?
We don't have to react to each individual instance of ignorant behavior,
but sometimes, we should speak up, inform and educate. It's not fair we
always have to feel bad because of ignorant behavior.
Sincerely,
Bridgit Kuenning-Pollpeter
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Date: Tue, 20 Sep 2011 09:12:31 -0500
From: Brad Dunse' <lists at braddunsemusic.com>
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Just some thoghts as an exercise in writing, editing, re-writing,
etc....
Walking Mirrors
By Brad Dunse
Over twenty years ago I was diagnosed with
Retinitis Pigmentosa. From that day forward life
has been an incredible journey of personal
heartbreak, discovery, growth, joy, success, and
a host of life learning experiences.
One such continual lesson is the journey of
personal behavior in reaction to events
surrounding us and the conduct of others. How and
why people, specifically me, react the way we do in certain life
situations.
Particular to this writing is my reaction to the
varying affects we have as blind individuals on
the garden variety sighted human. Why the varied
responses to our personal exchange with them out
on the street, in the workplace, or grocery store?
What compels one person to physically grab your
white cane, attempting to pull it in the
direction they'd like you to go, while yet
another will carry on a walking conversation
without concern a cane is even present?
Why is it one person will awkwardly try to help,
leaving you witness to their spilled purses,
dropped grocery bags, or crashed shopping carts
as pseudo-heroics cause them to trip for the door
prior to your reaching for it, while another
honestly addresses the elephant in the room
admitting they've never encountered a blind
person before so if help is needed they'll just rely on you to say so.
Why is it one waitress will ask your dinner-mate
what it is you want off the menu as if you were
an incapable toddler, while another will simply
pull a pencil from behind the ear, flip a page
back off the notepad, poke the pencil down on the
paper, look at you and say "OK Hun, what can I get you".
When I first came to learning about blindness,
having much usable vision myself and carrying a
sighted person's perspective, I may not have
known or even thought of how I might handle
myself in the company of a blind individual, but
without question I'd treat them with dignity and
respect the same manner I try to treat anyone.
In that same time frame I observed tirades from
blind individuals as a result of their frustrated
reaction to stereotypes and assumptions from
people they met on the streets treating them like helpless dotes.
I remember one incident involving a blind lady I
knew who was getting on a city bus. A fellow
passenger offered to help her. And in this
particular case the individual trying to help was
really not that far out of line in my opinion,
more chivalrous than patronizing. . Nonetheless
the blind woman's demeanor horrifically snapped
in front of the entire busload of people, really
letting the well intentioned passenger have it
good. That scene was indelibly etched in my mind
and caused me a considerable amount of
consternation. Though I was disappointed by the
reaction of this woman positioned as mentor, I
was not judgmental of her, I was simply trying to
understand her response to a well-meaning person.
Of course over time I learned more about mobility
skills and encountering sighted folks who
reacted out of ignorance. Often times these
encounters take on a belittling atmosphere of
social helplessness, gaining intensity as well as
audience the more it is allowed to continue. I
began to understand how shear repetition of
having to deal with it could become quite annoying.
The woman on the bus whose temper exploded at the
well-meaning passenger reminded me of the very
first time I got on an email discussion list as a
new information highway passenger. My very first
mass internet communication and I was excited to
be trying this new medium out, it was going to be awesome.
Not long after subscribing, a net acquaintance of
mine forwarded me one of those virus warnings.
You know one of the hoaxes out there which some
folks are driven to pass along? just in case?
Well? Knowing no better I passed it straight up
to the email list like a good helpful,
responsible and yes ignorant person might do.
Within minutes I was berated in front of the
entire list, pretty badly I might add.
I was quite angry, upset and even hurt. I was
only trying to help, just trying to be a
responsible person because seeing someone fall
prey to this so called virus when I could avoid it was not pleasurable.
My first reaction was to assume "Geez! People on
these email lists are rude, angry and just not
very nice people at all. If that's the way they
are going to be, I'll let them to their own
misery!" Of course over time and many discussion
memberships later, I learned how often virus
forwards occurred and how it took up people's
valuable time. Such posts become repetitious
aggravations, which this person happened to have
had just one too many such posts with mine.
After the fact, like the person sending the nasty
email, I understood the reason for the fellow
blind person's over reaction on the bus. Still, I
vowed I did not want to give that first
impression to someone trying to help. Even if
their help was out of ignorance just like I was
with my virus warning. Even if it was out of a
needless sense of pity or inappropriate sense of
superiority, I did not want to just hand over my
emotional control to someone by hyper-reacting to
their behavior. Neither did I want to make them
feel as I had with my well-meaning yet ignorant post to the discussion
list.
I then began to question and discover why this
happens. Why the differing reactions like the
ones mentioned earlier? Maybe I'm wrong, maybe
it is uniquely limited to my experience, or
perhaps living these years as a blind person has
yet to teach me more in this area. Or in fact
maybe it is merely a perspective that isn't an
absolute but a generalization which serves my
purpose for my own outcomes and education of dealing with such sighted
folks.
At any rate I've come to believe that to others
we are not blind people at all. They really do
not see "us" as blind people. What they do see is
"themselves" as a blind person in our encounter
with them. What do I mean? The reason they react
as they do is sort of a dual mirror. They see a
blind person across the street happily tapping
along a sidewalk for instance. What they also see
ten feet directly in front is the stone planter
smack dab in the middle of the sidewalk. However,
what they really see is themselves as the blind
person based on their own lack of experiential
reference and knowledge. They know without a
doubt if they were that blind person, there would
be one heck of a bloody crash. To avoid their
feeling this way, they holler across traffic
"Watch out for the planter in front of you!" As
if you were to inherently know they are talking
to you in the first place. You see they don't see
"us", but they see "themselves" as the blind person in our shoes.
The second mirror is this. Remember the person
who grabbed your white cane to direct you while
in a walking conversation? Conversely do you
remember the person in the same situation that
didn't give your blindness a second thought?
Think about those two people for a minute. Was
the one grabbing for the cane a weak type of
person who is a bit insecure? A bit unsure in
life? One who is themselves dependent ? A
person a bit undecided in life? A soul ambling
through life directed by situations surrounding them?
Or perhaps the opposite side of the same coin,
someone with a know-it-all facade? Someone with a
quiet or bold attitude of superiority?
One appearing to be strong by always being
right? Someone over the top in bold dominancy?
These types are likely over compensating for
those same insecurities as those outwardly
appearing weak, just in a quite different way.
What then about the person who carried on
oblivious to the cane and its meaning as they
continued walking and talking with you? What can
we say about them? Were they a solid silent type?
Someone fairly sure of themselves? A competent
person? A risk taker perhaps? Someone who enjoys
a challenge? Perhaps themselves balanced in
independency? A methodically confident person? My
guess is they probably are some combination of these traits.
Respective to the above types, the same can be
said for the one tripping over themselves to open
a door, and the opposing one who exposed the
apparent elephant in the room. Also the same for
the waiter or waitress that asked your
dinner-mate what you want for dinner or to drink,
compared to the pencil wielding waitress with the no nonsense attitude.
So what is the usefulness in knowing this? For
me at least, it is tremendously helpful to
understand another person while in conversation
or doing daily business. I am forever reading
other people, unfortunately forgetting their name
two seconds after we meet because I'd been
reading what they are really about the whole
while. But for me to understand who they are and
why they do what they do is tantamount to helping
me react in a way that will empower or positively
enable me to utilize the encounter to my
emotional or future advantage. Even if it serves
the purpose I won't lose control, fly off the
handle in the moment, or get sarcastic or terse
with them, even if it simply keeps me on top of
the conversation or situation, because I know
when I get out of control, invariably fear is present someplace.
I really have nothing to fear encountering any
type of insecure sighted person as a blind
individual, and can remain in control through my
own security. As a result I am free to treat
them in a more constructive manner.
So you see we are really just walking mirrors
which when other's see us, they see themselves
based on their own security or insecurity in
life, and in the process enables us to see their
reflection of themselves with the advantage of
handling the situation to our emotional gain. We
decide for ourselves who really needs the pity or
help in the situation and conduct ourselves
accordingly. It really is a humorous trick on our
part, but since they've initiated it with their
response to our presence, why not finish it using
it to our gain, and truthfully the good of all.
?2011 Brad Dunse
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