[stylist] Writing exercise, Brad Dunce

Thu Sep 22 18:39:10 UTC 2011

Dear Brad,

It takes me awhile to respond.

Your well-written article and the many responses, presented a challenge to
me. As a poet pretender, to put an idea, or many, as the discussion proved,
into a small size carrying the punch, or a summary of all in a concise form,
was my assignment this morning. Tell me if you think I got it.
I send this to myself first, and it seemed to retain the format. When I
pasted it into this e-mail to you, it became double and triple spaced. Keep
that in mind as you read it. Sorry.
Thank you for writing such an informative and inspiring article.

Blinded by Sight

Some cannot see the qualities, the inner spirit,

the intelligence-hampered as they are by sight-

of the blind, the deaf, the not pretty or handicapped. 

A source of guilt? Fear of not knowing what to do, 

or how to help?

We, the recipients of these myriad emotions, have

but one responsibility to these others, and ourselves-

to discover intent and know that almost always it is 

a well of goodness. On the rare occasion the intent is cruelty, 

we must move through rancor by further self-understanding: 

stress? ego? pride? criticism of ignorance?

No reproofs are necessary, just gentle statements

of what help would be beneficial, given back 

with patience and love for any concern shown.

Time will move on as well as progress. 

In spaces in-between, we have our Helen Kellers, 

our mountain climbers, our Roberts, Brads and Bridgets- 

so many others, to light our way. 

C Jacqueline Williams

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From: stylist-bounces at nfbnet.org [mailto:stylist-bounces at nfbnet.org] On
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Sent: Tuesday, September 20, 2011 7:13 AM
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Subject: [stylist] Writing exercise

Just some thoghts as an exercise in writing, editing, re-writing, etc....

Walking Mirrors
By Brad Dunse

Over twenty years ago I was diagnosed with 
Retinitis Pigmentosa. From that day forward life 
has been an incredible journey of personal 
heartbreak, discovery, growth, joy, success, and 
a host of life learning experiences.

One such continual lesson is the journey of 
personal behavior in reaction to events 
surrounding us and the conduct of others. How and 
why people, specifically me, react the way we do in certain life situations.

Particular to this writing is my reaction to the 
varying affects we have as blind individuals on 
the garden variety sighted human. Why the varied 
responses to our personal exchange with them out 
on the street, in the workplace, or grocery store?

What compels one person to physically grab your 
white cane, attempting to pull it in the 
direction they'd like you to go, while yet 
another will carry on a walking conversation 
without concern a cane is even present?

Why is it one person will awkwardly try to help, 
leaving you witness to their spilled purses, 
dropped grocery bags, or crashed shopping carts 
as pseudo-heroics cause them to trip for the door 
prior to your reaching for it, while another 
honestly addresses the elephant in the room 
admitting they've never encountered a blind 
person before so if help is needed they'll just rely on you to say so.

Why is it one waitress will ask your dinner-mate 
what it is you want off the menu as if you were 
an incapable toddler, while another will simply 
pull a pencil from behind the ear, flip a page 
back off the notepad, poke the pencil down on the 
paper, look at you and say "OK Hun, what can I get you".

When I first came to learning about blindness, 
having much usable vision myself and carrying a 
sighted person's  perspective, I may not have 
known or even thought of how I might handle 
myself in the company of a blind individual, but 
without question I'd treat them with dignity and 
respect   the same manner I try to treat anyone.

In that same time frame I observed tirades from 
blind individuals as a result of their frustrated 
reaction to stereotypes and assumptions from 
people they met on the streets treating them like helpless dotes.

I remember one incident involving a blind lady I 
knew who was getting on a city bus. A fellow 
passenger offered to help her. And in this 
particular case the individual trying to help was 
really not that far out of line in my opinion, 
more chivalrous than patronizing. . Nonetheless 
the blind woman's demeanor horrifically snapped 
in front of the entire busload of people, really 
letting the well intentioned passenger have it 
good.  That scene was indelibly etched in my mind 
and caused me a considerable amount of 
consternation. Though I was disappointed by the 
reaction of this woman positioned as mentor, I 
was not judgmental of her, I was simply trying to 
understand her response to a well-meaning person.

Of course over time I learned more about mobility 
skills and encountering  sighted folks who 
reacted out of ignorance. Often times these 
encounters take on  a belittling atmosphere of 
social helplessness, gaining intensity as well as 
audience  the more it  is allowed to continue. I 
began to understand how shear repetition of 
having to deal with it could become quite annoying.

The woman on the bus whose temper exploded at the 
well-meaning passenger reminded me of the very 
first time I got on an email discussion list as a 
new information highway passenger. My very first 
mass internet communication and I was excited to 
be trying this new medium out, it was going to be awesome.

Not long after subscribing, a net acquaintance of 
mine forwarded me one of those virus warnings. 
You know one of the hoaxes out there  which some 
folks are driven to pass along. just in case? 
Well? Knowing no better I passed it straight up 
to the email list like a good helpful, 
responsible and yes ignorant person might do. 
Within minutes I was berated in front of the 
entire list, pretty badly I might add.

I was quite angry, upset and even hurt. I was 
only trying to help, just trying to be a 
responsible person because seeing someone fall 
prey to this so called virus when I could avoid it was not pleasurable.

My first reaction was to assume "Geez! People on 
these email lists are rude, angry and just not 
very nice people at all. If that's the way they 
are going to be, I'll let them to their own 
misery!" Of course over time and many discussion 
memberships later, I learned how often  virus 
forwards occurred and how it took up people's 
valuable time. Such posts  become repetitious 
aggravations, which this person happened to have 
had just one too many such posts with mine.

After the fact, like the person sending the nasty 
email, I understood the reason for the fellow 
blind person's over reaction on the bus. Still, I 
vowed I did not want to give that first 
impression to someone trying to help. Even if 
their help was out of ignorance just like I was 
with my virus warning. Even if  it was out of a 
needless sense of pity or inappropriate sense of 
superiority, I did not want to just hand over my 
emotional control to someone by hyper-reacting to 
their behavior. Neither did I want to make them 
feel as I had   with my well-meaning yet ignorant post to the discussion
list.

I then began to question and discover why this 
happens. Why the differing reactions like the 
ones mentioned earlier?  Maybe I'm wrong, maybe 
it is uniquely limited to my experience, or 
perhaps living these years as a blind person has 
yet to teach me more in this area. Or in fact 
maybe it is merely a perspective that isn't an 
absolute but a generalization which serves my 
purpose for my own outcomes and education of dealing with such sighted
folks.

At any rate  I've come to believe that to others 
we are not blind people at all. They really do 
not see "us" as blind people. What they do see is 
"themselves" as a blind person in our encounter 
with them. What do I mean? The reason they react 
as they do is sort of a dual mirror. They see a 
blind person across the street happily tapping 
along a sidewalk for instance. What they also see 
ten feet directly in front is the stone planter 
smack dab in the middle of the sidewalk. However, 
what they really see is themselves as the blind 
person based on their own lack of experiential 
reference and knowledge. They know without a 
doubt if they were that blind person, there would 
be one heck of a bloody crash. To avoid their 
feeling this way, they holler across traffic 
"Watch out for the planter in front of you!" As 
if you were to inherently know they are talking 
to you in the first place. You see they don't see 
"us", but they see "themselves" as the blind person in our shoes.

The second mirror is this. Remember the person 
who grabbed your white cane to direct you while 
in a walking conversation? Conversely do you 
remember the person in the same situation that 
didn't give your blindness a second thought? 
Think about those two people for a minute. Was 
the one grabbing for the cane a weak type of 
person who is a bit insecure? A bit unsure in 
life? One who   is themselves dependent  ? A 
person a bit undecided in life?  A soul ambling 
through life directed by situations surrounding them?

Or perhaps the opposite side of the same coin, 
someone with a know-it-all facade? Someone with a 
quiet or bold  attitude of superiority? 
One  appearing to be strong by always being 
right? Someone over the top in bold dominancy? 
These types  are likely over compensating for 
those same insecurities as those outwardly 
appearing weak, just in a quite different way.

What then about the person who carried on 
oblivious to the cane and its  meaning as they 
continued walking and talking with you? What can 
we say about them? Were they a solid silent type? 
Someone fairly sure of themselves? A competent 
person? A risk taker perhaps? Someone who enjoys 
a challenge? Perhaps themselves balanced in 
independency? A methodically confident person? My 
guess is they probably are some combination of these traits.

Respective to the above types, the same can be 
said for the one tripping over themselves to open 
a door, and the opposing one who exposed the 
apparent elephant in the room. Also the same for 
the waiter or waitress that asked your 
dinner-mate what you want for dinner or to drink, 
compared to the pencil wielding waitress with the no nonsense attitude.

So what is the usefulness  in knowing this? For 
me at least, it is tremendously helpful to 
understand another person while in conversation 
or doing daily business. I am forever reading 
other people, unfortunately forgetting their name 
two seconds after we meet because I'd been 
reading what they are really about the whole 
while.  But for me to understand who they are and 
why they do what they do is tantamount to helping 
me react in a way that will empower or positively 
enable me to utilize the encounter to my 
emotional or future advantage. Even if it serves 
the purpose I won't lose control, fly off the 
handle in the moment, or get sarcastic or terse 
with them, even if it simply keeps me on top of 
the conversation or situation, because I know 
when I get out of control, invariably fear is present someplace.

I really have nothing to fear encountering any 
type of insecure sighted person as a blind 
individual, and can remain  in control through my 
own security. As a result I am free to treat 
them  in a more constructive manner.

So you see we are really just walking mirrors 
which when other's see us, they see themselves 
based on their own security or insecurity in 
life, and in the process enables us to  see their 
reflection of themselves with the advantage of 
handling the situation to our emotional gain. We 
decide for ourselves who really needs the pity or 
help in the situation and conduct ourselves 
accordingly. It really is a humorous trick on our 
part, but since they've initiated it with their 
response to our presence, why not finish it using 
it to our gain, and truthfully the good of all.

C2011 Brad Dunse

Brad Dunse

"Write like you mean it and sing like nobody's watching" --Ben Wakeman

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